why only i am facing this ? have no courage to die ): all my dreams have gone..

Bro, i had a sissy fantasy but now i don't. I'm improving my self-esteem. This is so helpful. Don't count days, don't be angry at yourself... I still addicted femdom. Sissy fantasy is very little. Don't think very much, just do it and trust yourself.

 

Firstly, try not to focus on your problems. You are still young. U are addicted to the things that u are doing. Avoid those things. Try to develop your masculine potentials. Avoid being behaving like feminine all together. Remember u are still an addict. It's in your mind that is you are wrong. It doesn’t matter what u feel.

 

it seems like maybe your idea of what you think you want and what you actually may want out of life are not in agreement. if you are gay, that's okay. if you're straight, that's okay too. if you're bi, that's also okay.

if you are truly questioning your gender, my dm's are open. i am a trans man. exploring your gender indenity can be difficult and you don't want to think about those types of things with a cloudy head.

(food for thought : being a trans man, born female, my entire childhood was people calling me a girl and pushing me into the girl role, and it didn't make me have fantasies about being a girl in sexual situations. i was even sexually assaulted as a child by boys my age. i am bisexual, i do bottom, but i am usually a top. i jerk off happily to men and women, picturing myself as i am, a trans man.)

 

if this is a result of porn you can and will heal my guy. you are strong and whatever you want in life you can get!

 

have you ever considered seeing a therapist? were you raised religious? is your family homophobic?

 

i did read it all it, porn made it worse, that's all i was trying to get at. maybe the thoughts you had before porn were natural for you.

 

i feel like a counsellor or therapist could point you in the right direction. it just seems to me like you're having an orientation crisis.

in a world where a male being feminine, gay or amything of the sort is seen as wrong and society having a majority of homophobic and transphobic idealogies, it's hard to be yourself.

it was hard for me to accept i wasn't "normal" when that's all i ever wanted to be. i wanted to die instead of continue to live as i was or come out to everyone in my life as transgender, but after a long while i realized feeling comfortable and being happy is more important than anything anyone else thinks.

(since my very first memories i have felt like a boy)

 

@krishna _ 1
you got this, man! you deserve to be happy and you deserve love and support.
thank you for sharing your story. you are not alone

 

Am I the only one that finds this story fake and just looking to trigger people?

 

well, i'm autistic and it wouldn't be the first time i didn't realize i was being fucked with <_<

 

It does give some trolling vibes. Either that or the OP is not posting to look for help bust just the get attention from strangers online .

He is talking how he wants to fix his life , how he has dreams and jet he isn't willing to do a single thing to try to change his situation. And a lot of people have provided good advice to him .

 

[Nodding in agreement...]

[...again nodding in agreement...]


[thinking.... it's easier to go on with relapsing and wining here every day than to even make the smallest step to fight the bad behavior......]

 

[but agreed.... the first step can be the toughest....

plus...


every time you gave in, you push the first step to somewhere into the future........


Take your responsibility.

Take your responsibility.

Take your responsibility....]