done an unforgivable sin planning for suicide

And do you take care of your mum as you promised?

 

Taking care of you mum is such an amazing thing to do, could you tell me about that? what do you do to take care of her?

 

Lets work through this together, I have experienced a similar thing to you, not the same, but similar, and I learned a great deal. Sex & Porn addiction affects so many parts of us, especially our psyche and unconscious and when you are in a dark place, unravelling and sharing with a fellow human, who loves you and is not judging you can be so powerful. I think you have been really brave so far to share what you have.

Please could you share what you do for your mom? It may become clearer as we go.

 

How does this fantasy make you "feel"? Not want you want to do, but how you "feel" - what emotion? It is really important you try to name the emotion?

 

That is what you want do... not how you feel, are you angry? sad? shamed? guilty?

 

Think deep krishna, whats that emotion? Name it bro.

 

You are loved Krishna.
it sounds like you are in a really dark place. Looking back at our conversations, the person you have hurt the most is yourself. Love is a powerful projection, a mirror to your soul if you like, all those things you think about the girl you love are parts of you, that have been neglected. Self love, those parts of you are screaming at you for recognition and attention, that's why those thoughts have had this affect on you, and that is what they are "thoughts". try to acknowledge those parts and see what they say, through prayer or meditation

If you describe the girl you love - and what it is about her, then those are parts of YOU, but you cant see it. That is worth so much krishna - You are worth so much.

P is such a vile drug - it distorts our reality and beliefs. You have been so strong and brave to even share this.

Are you safe?

 

I will pray for you Krishna.

 

Hey i just read thru the thread and its ok bro. Ur in a rlly dark place rn but just know that there is no such thing as an unforgivable sin, we can all come back from a dark time in our life and this just happens to be a dark time for u so please stay. Ur life is precious and shouldnt be thrown away over this bc this problem is temporary and can be fixed, if u commit suicide theres no way to fix that so please stay. Ur life matters krishna.

 

Its gonna take time and thats ok. Ill be praying for u. Stay strong and know that ur life is not worth taking over this or anything for that matter. Keep ur head up