hi guys i have committed an unforgivable sin i cant even forgive myself so i am planning suicide will you listen to my pain?
I don't think it's an unforgivable sin but to do it is probably a mistake. Sometimes life is hard but you never know when it will turn around. And you sure won't if you take your own life.
i love a girl bro honestly we are friends mine was one side love i want to propose her but always scare that she will reject me one day i decided to propose her at any cost but i dont know to meet so i asked our common friend(male) to help. he said he will help but he cheated me. he said all this to her before i proposed. it went like i cheated her and she stopped talking. i tried to move on from her but i cant honestly. honestly we will get a feeling like when we meet our special ones with whom we will spend our life i got that feelings bro every time i tried to move on my heart stops me so i decided to love her from far bro but then the actual problem starts.....
i am a sex addict bro mastrubating since 10yrs also i mastrubate to homosexual fantasies. i know i am not perfect male. coming to the point i saw a porn scene it was weird i havent seen like that it is first time i saw. i mastrubated for it. from then i started imagining me and her in that scene. i mastrubated a lot bro. suddenly i am getting these weird feelings bro i dont know why i am getting these feelings bro. when i am fapping for me and her i am getting those thoughts as she and that guy in that scene. i cant take it bro. honestly i am not doing it intentionally. but i am getting these cuckold fantasies as she and that guy. i cant take it bro really. i questioned her integrity. i killed her character in me and i killed my character too. honestly she is not that type bro. sadly i proposed her recently and waiting for her reply but after that all these happened. now i cant even stand infront of her and cant talk to her. i cant even forgive myself. i compared her with my mom bro but i failed to keep that promise. i did an unforgivable sin. i tried to move on but those love stops me. i cant even love her from far now. so i failed as a good son,good lover (even though one sided), good human. my love is not pure bro so i am planning for suicide
i cant take it bro she is not that type promise she is a goddess in my life but i failed to keep the promise i compared her to my mom but failed
