How the fuck did I end up this way ? Lazy , entitled , hopeless , zero ambition , zero drive , zero friends . I'm losing things I never even had. I'm missing things I never achieved. That's what really hurts. I'm at my lowest point .I feel so fucking guilty , I come from a country with nothing , no jobs for the youth , a failed state. And here I am fucking up. I promise on my own life I'm going to clean up this mess of my life within the next 6 months or leave my home , drop out of college , get a job and hustle I am so fucking sorry to every one I disapointed. I'm so sorry. I hate my self and I hate my recklessness but I have zero drive to do anything.I'm really sorry .To all the unemployed youth in my home nation , I promise to work hard and struggle earnestly now , You are my motivation. I believe in you, please believe in me.im done being an underachiever. Let's do this together.
