@runninginadarktunnel Bro I've also developed a fetish in my early 20ies. It was the sign that I need to stop watching porn for good. And now after ten years of struggling I've come a long way but I still haven't got rid of that fetish. But it got a lot better. You have to be strong and persistent then you'll achieve your goals
The first porn video that I watched was a youtube video. back then there was many porn videos on youtube. it was a fetish video. I didn't watched vanilla porn maybe until I am 17-18. first years, I only looked for fetish content. even when I was a child, I was having fetish fantasies way before than internet porn. way before than my first orgasm. There was a time that I watched vanilla porn. couple of years. but I don't watch them much anymore. now I almost always watch fetish porn. the problem for me is to treat my injury. I don't feel less mentally because I watch fetish videos. I feel less because I am damaging and traumatizing my penis. this is really hard.
2 h approximatly. Zero urges to watch porn but incredibly strong urges to masturbate. But wife will likely want to have sex soon and I should spend my love and energy on her.
interesting. ı don't have masturbation urges without having porn urges. it is good that u can want masturbation without porn. and yeah save yourself to your wife. is your goal 90 days?
check in, I can manage the urges. @runninginadarktunnel I think this is a good sign, too. My goal is finishing the year without porn and reaching 180 days without masturbation to finally finish the Lord of the Rings challenge. What are your goals?
yeah that's a good sign. my goal is to heal from my penile injury. I don't know when it would happen but I feel like I should do at least 1 month of nofap. maybe 3 months. hopefully not 6 months if I fail before 1 month, I would be unsatisfied, but 3-4 months would be great. but I try to trick myself into "just 3 days" and then 7 days mark and then 14 days mark so on....
Home alone for 2h surprisingly. Chaser effect kicks in because of sex this morning. I must stick to my emergency protocol.
check in. I do feel relatively safe but urges are still present. I must be careful. Otherwise I lose my 30+ days