I have no idea (God?) how I got to a thread with the most recent post dated before i joined? William THANK YOU for your paragraph on porn. I never thought of those rumblings in my head as porn. I always thought porn was just external images, not internal! WOW! What an eye opener. Never thought of myself as a creator of porn before. Perhaps this is what is meant in the bible verse where it talks about the fact that if you have performed something bad in your mind, you have performed it. The truth WILL set you free. Thanks for letting me know that truth. This site is soooooo wonderful!
It may be getting worse, but it WILL get better! It will be so worth it! In the mean time, think about what you can do to better yourself. It's much easier to stay clean by thinking about positive things, than it is to stay clean while thinking, "Don't watch porn, don't watch porn, don't watch porn, ..." lol You're doing great. Just keep at it. Don't worry about the future, take care of yourself in the now.
Look back through your history, though -- you *ARE* making progress. 1st Reset: 1 day 7 hours 2nd Reset: 1 day 16 hours 3rd Reset: 10 days and 16 hours You went from not being able to make 2 days to making it 10! That's a hell of an accomplishment. Hang in there -- you're getting better each time!
I have got a very important deadline work to be done. I have to use the internet. If I can't finish this in time, it is going to be a real disaster for my family and for me. I can't concentrate, I don't have time to sleep. K9 did not help, when my willpower is gone. I simply can't stop fapping because of the pressure. I am trying really hard. Please help. I need some short-term solution over the next three days. Do you have any tips? I can't tell this problem anyone around me.
Have you watched everything from Nofap academy and Sacred Sexuality Project? I pretty much stopped fapping straight after watching all those videos as well as joining this site.. so I don't know what more you can do from there. The sentence that hit me the most was "to quit porn you basically have to do.. nothing." and "whatever you do, don't touch your penis". Since finding out how easy it was, I just followed that and have not touched my penis since. Good luck buddy.
I think this is the part that frustrates me the most. My counter's gone strong in terms of days I haven't actually watched porn, touched myself, or orgasmed. Yet it's the fantasy part that kills me. It seems like every day I've been having urges or sexual thoughts about women out of my life which makes me rise immediately. I don't know whether I've made any progress or not, despite the fact I haven't edged with my hand, orgasmed or looked at anything explicit.
I think you have made progress, if you can separate your fantasies from the porn use. There is no dopamine reward for your scarred mind, or at least not that huge dose. In my opinion, this is a very important step towards recovery. You are in the right track.