Wow, I completed 70 days. Max after so long, because before I used get to only 20,22,30,and once 60 only.
Yeah, but some days comes like we think let's try peeking something or thinking sexual and all or sometimes the urge or flatines are so strong that time we need to fight because after we overcome it there are no urges for most of the days.
But sometimes I am being so much pessimistic in my thinking, having anxieties and all, but I think those are for our betterment only because we grow from that
nothing much bro going through PAWS and flatline only good thing is almost 0 panic attacks now and mood swings are much much more manageable. Insomnia is reduced ( thank god for this) and able to sleep well now Anixety is still there with minor depression & minor brain fog It is a loooong journey for me as i watched porn for over 11 years
These sound like pretty good benefits to me. You cured panic attacks from just 90 days way to go man! I started P when I was 6 until I was 29 about 23 years. I'm bad I also went to asian massage parlors for the last 12 years im probably the most fd up on this site.
I actually travelled to Asia to have sex with prostitues and almost had full penetrated sex with a lady boy. Don't write yourself off, there is hope. Keep searching. I was into really bad fetishes and was a compulsive sex addict. Abstaining from all forms of sexual immorality can work wonders.
Wether I did or didn't do it isn't the point. The point is there is hope even for the worst of us. It's when we give up hope and allow shame and self hatred to perpetually reside in our heart, we will find ourselves in a torture chamber.
Exaclty just have to keep moving foward and view ourselves as someone that doesn't do that anymore. Yes we did it but if we can see ourselves as someone that no longer participates in that and strong enough to fight the cravings our new selves will eventually become who we are and we will feel good about it. To be able to practice the self control that it takes to avoid the thing that we so much loved and was everything for us is something most people cannot do. We will become much stronger as a person and stronger than most people in general if we stay committed to our goals.
That's it and sharing our weaknesses and downfalls with others who understand and can help us change is another reason to stay connected. I spent way to long isolating myself and thinking I was the only one who wrestled with this type of negative behaviour.
