Bottom line, this is not a healthy relationship for either of you. You need to decide if you want to continue playing games or if you want to put your foot down. If you don't start setting boundaries in what you want or expect, you will constantly be taken advantage of. What do you want? Do you want a stable, monogamous relationship? Or do you want to go back and forth constantly wondering what the status is? How much do you value yourself to allow it to go on?
I want a one woman relationship, where both are respected, loved and accepted by eachother. I hoped that it was her. I was wrong, I wasnt that for her. Yesterday she told me how her lover f**ked her with his big D, 5 times a night, and how long he lasted in bed. And then she left me, without any emotion. I broke down mentally. Thought I was going litterally insane. Drow to hospital for help, and now im hospitalised. Feeling kinda dead and worthless as a man. How am I going on with my life after this I dont know. The small penis syndrome and body dysmorphia was my biggest stressor in life, because of that I had also premature ejaculation. She knew about that, she didnt give a f how her words will destroy me and took away the littlest selfesteem I had. Gonna need some therapy after this. How am I supposed to satisfy a woman if this demon is in my head. That when it comes to sex Im worthless, I cant get it up and I last for a few minutes and im small, and Ive been disregarded for that reason before. Its like they are having sex in my head constantly, and it tears me appart.
