Hello, i'm 36 y/o man, struggling with addictions, and PMO is one of them. I'm done with alcohol and cigarettes(AA meetings are helping me a lot! I'm over one year sober atm). I'm in, i would say, transition period in my life. Finally i will quit my boring job after 9 years (everything planned, ive got my itinerary), change place (a country!) where i live, and i'm learning new skills to get a better job. I've introduced some healthier habits into my everyday life, although i slip sometimes. I lack discipline. I've been trying to stop PMO for last 3-4 weeks, i had some better periods, around week, without PMO, with occasionaly MO, i watched no porn for about 3 weeks, but. But i obviously relapsed today, and like 5 times with nasty P... I feel like crap now, but i know it will pass. Now i understand i can't do MO, i have to stop P forever and rest for a time being, lets say 30 days (i just need some challenge perhaps) for beginning and hopefully continue. I'm single atm, i broke up with my gf couple of months ago. I miss her and sex too. I've got that sexual thoughts, some memories, some fantasies, and urge is so strong from time to time that i wish that there was someone to tie my hands or sth... I know i have to focus on myself, maybe i will meet someone in future, but for now i should stick to get better everyday. I don't know what to expect here, maybe some guidance for start, maybe some good word. I hope you here are all ok! Kind regards
