Hi fellow fapstronauts. So I'm 32, been watching porn since the age of 14, and have the last 4-5 years never masturbated to anything else than porn, 1-3 times a day. As you can imagine since I'm posting here, I'm suffering from PIED. I discovered YBOP last winter, and have since tried rebooting a couple times. My last reboot started late july/early August. First couple of weeks were hard, I constantly arrested myself googling if there were e.g. any nudes of this or that influencer/actor, but I never actively looked at porn. I think I had a minor flatline, since my mood was monotonous and dead-dick syndrome. About a month into the reboot, I met this girl that I fell for. I think this kickstarted my libido from the minor flatline, because I couldn't control my thoughts and even had a couple morning woods (not 100% ones though). Since I have been suffering from PIED for a long time, but not really knowing what the reason was, I had a stash of the blue pill ready. The first weekend we met up, I of course popped a pill and we went at it. I wasn't more than 70-80% hard, and could not cum for shit. I was also semi-drunk at the time. After a couple weeks, last weekend, I could feel the girls mood towards me change. Me having bad confidence of course led to me relapsing. I PMO'd first once, then got the chaser effect and did it once more only hours after. I think this threw me into a major flatline, because since the day after this happened (last monday), I've felt like shit. Completely monotonous mood, hard concentrating and no motivation, dead-dick, and absolutely no sex drive. After not hearing from that girl for 4 days, she has sent 5 snaps to me today out of the blue, last one showing interest and asking how my weekends been. As I really like this girl, I just can't get my mind away from how poorly timed it is. Full on flatlined, during a reboot that won't be over for another 2-6 months probably. With that being said, I have a couple questions I hope people have some experience with. If I pick up the thread and continue going at it with this girl, will this in any way hinder my reboot and rewiring prosess? Will using the blue pill ruin the rewiring of the brain? I assume staying completely away from sexual stimulation is the best and quickest way to cleanse one selves.. Any tips on how to attack this?
Flatlines are temporary they will pass. I think you can see this as a win actually. Instead of going into a relationship thirsty and wanting to get physical you can take the time to really be romantic with this person, to go on dates, to wine and dine them, to really get to know them before you introduce the physical stuff. Dating someone shouldn't hinder your recovery. A lot of people say it's actually helpful, you are teaching your sexuality to be interested in flesh-and-blood people again. And if you keep the relationship romantic until your flatline is over there should absolutely be no problem.
I’m on day 6 of No PMO. And I feel great. I wanna see a girl before I flatline to test if my PIED is gone. At what point does a flatline happen?
