Strive 21 Day 1 journaling

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  1. Seahorsesareweird

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    What do you like about viewing pornography?
    This is really hard question. Honestly at this point I don't like anything about pornography and think it is all evil/bad. But unfortunately it is enticing and can be fun at times when I am bored. I guess also I like the way it makes me feel when cum.

    What do you dislike about viewing pornography?
    1. It gives you a false sense of reality.
    2. It gives the illusion of being real when it is not
    3. It sexualizes others for your benefit
    4. It is basically legalized prostitution.
    5. It turns people into objects and not people with hearts minds and souls.
    6. It has gotten so bad as to try and get children and married couples involved
    7. It is grown so big as to become a massive industry that is shoved into everything in daily life.
    8. It makes you feel bad about yourself due to unreal expectations.
    9. It is unholy
    Honestly I can go on and on but over the course of this past year ever since I have tried to quit I went from enjoying and thinking porn is cool and good to hating everything about it.

    How has Pornography affected your current and past relationships.
    I think pornography has prevented me from fully being able to love. In my past relationship I felt like I loved my girlfriend, but looking back, that love was lacking something. There was a part of me that was dark and unable to love due to the darkness that porn has done to me. I think watching porn too much over the years dehumanizes females to the point where you cannot fully love one. In short, porn has destroyed my ability to love.

    What makes you think you need to change? My heart, soul, mind needs reformation. I think I have changed so much, in thinking badly about myself and others in ways I have never before. Deep down I know these thoughts are not true, and that is why I am searching for the truth, which I believe I have recently found in Jesus Christ. ( I was born a jew ).

    Suppose you don't change, what will your life look like in 5 years? What is the worst thing that might happen? I believe my life will look sort of like it has looked for my past 10 years of living in this addiction. I will be lost, without god, without love, spending money on alcohol and porn. Never to love a woman, only lust after many. Never move forward in life, only backwards. Stuck in a vortex of never-ending self destruction. The worst thing that could happen is I could destroy my soul to a point of no return.

    What would it look like if you removed porn from your life in 5 years? What is the best thing you can imagine that would happen as a result? I would be at ease with myself and with god, my heart would be able to love and I would probably get married by then. I would be very successful in work and in church, and would be a leader to many who want to quit like me and start a new life. I would be a light in the darkness instead of a darkness in the light. The best thing that could happen is I could use this skill I gained to help people get there way out of hell - and show them how I did it

    I invite you all to answer these questions too :) it is a good way of expressing yourself