Day 51 Slept alright ,no much temptations but a lot of morning wood ...maybe it's a very good strategy to whistle happy tune no matter what .
Day 52 Slept alright and looks like MW is not going anywhere .Self-control is getting better in general.Attention for studies and reading is very good.
Day 53 slept so-so,better by the morning.Didn't take a nap but dozed on the chair for a while when tried to read after lunch )
Day 54 slept not too bad .Woke up two times to urinate,on alarm went for another 2 hours of sleeping, had coffee again in the morning after a weeks break.There is a good progress on the number of urination times-they reduced and every time there is more stuff when the occasion calls for it,irritation reduced to nearly zero which is just great.
Day 55 slept quite well and woke up before alarm.A lot of working out today and cold showers become good again .Realized that i always liked to work with people and want my career to roll in that direction .
Day 56 didn't fall asleep at all just dutifully lay in bed for meant hours,felt a bit roughish and out of place through the day.
Keep up the good work. By the way is it normal to have porn fantasy in your head? I've been experiencing this for a couple of days. Will it just fade away? Is this bad?
You have to learn meditation to learn control of your thoughts.If it controls you and you can't get rid of it it is damaging your health. Learn to think and contemplate opposite which is -Righteousness,learn to like it in your heart and you'll be just fine.
@Slider8 It looks like I have the exact opposite problem with you. I can fall asleep in a matter of minutes. However, I cannot wake up early in the morning. Are there any tips you have for waking up early?
Day 59 slept alright with a bit of erotic content about my long lost girlfriend .Was a hard day to get through because of my today's diet but word is word ! Had a realization when reading bible about David's early life. God is Omnipresent and knows everything so when you wrong somebody and that person doesn't keep his bad feelings but passes them to Almighty-God takes the revenge and restores justice in His own ways.Because of this it is better to apologize than have an unexpected nasty surprise.
Day 60 slept so-so woke up because nightmare become too painful some sort of car flying off the top of the hill, being in the night tombs with some strange people some of them were with black eyes stabbing you in the back(00:29am) but the last one was the most horrible I laid on the bed in some house and saw the white worms coming out of my heart area like those in the apples..they where just getting through the skin and moment later there came out right from the heart/stomach area a huge white worm like a snake and i felt paralyzed in attempt to grab this horrible filth and trow it away ,I managed to sit and grabbed that which came out of me but couldn't throw it away just saw the big worm split into multitude of little one and I woke up at 4:30am.
Day 61 slept alright,woke up and studied history of transformations of those who managed to get through to the freedom from PMO. Although some good brothers share the good knowledge on how to set yourself free most people are still like pigs wallowing in the pleasures of PMO right to the point of ruined health and multitude of painful symptoms which is inevitable and probably the only point of awakening for them, for they just unable to understand the words of wisdom and follow them consistently without fault like if your very life was depending on them.
Day 62 was alright but on day 63 happened nocturnal emission and loss of sleep for 4 hours after that.Been very productive through the day and ate little.
Day 64 slept alright 8 hours, had a courage to express myself to public found a book i was looking for for two weeks !
