Day 108 days of internet addiction sobriety Day 131 days without pornography + social media + dating apps Day 1 of Meditating everyday I have a new goal in mind - it may seem a bit out there but 730. That is how many days PAWs may last for in extreme cases according to Dr Anna Lembke. It's also interestingly enough a decent amount of time to weigh up against the years of addiction that I previously engaged in. 14 years of constantly going between screens jumping from one dopamine vine to another. Adding onto that I've added meditating everyday onto my streak counter and I have been pulling away from watching television as much as I can. It's hard adjusting to a world without addictive internet use and pornography - it takes time for the brain to acclimate to new habits. 30-90 days actually. And I'm going to need to cultivate strong habits that will build resilience emotionally as a preventative measure but having practices such as exercise, meditation, resting without screens, drinking tea, jiu jitsu or reading a book will also work as a way to help me deal with my emotions too when they come up which is a skill that I need to develop after years of letting that muscle atrophy. Using instant gratification to distact/numb. I'm much more excited for things with sobriety time + less critical, less sensitive, more accepting and that is something I'm much more grateful for.
Day 111 days of internet addiction sobriety Day 134 days without pornography + social media + dating apps Day 4 of Meditating everyday My day mostly consisted of feeding, watching rabbits, going out to the shops, doing a bit of work, cooking, cleaning, I've been alerted of some health complications that have forced me to take my health more seriously and get tests. Since I've implemented a whole food diet and my body is still adjusting to the new diet. On one level I've been getting headaches but on another I've started to feel much better with my mood, serotonin and energy. I've incorporated a breathing method (WHM) that I do a few rounds of throughout the day and I've been keeping track of my health. ** Posted the day after**
You mentioned something interesting I'm about to post on this forum. NoFap IS NOT just about quitting porn. If someone wants to solve the problems in their lives, they need to cut ALL short term dopamine activities for a while. The ''superpowers'' will not work if people don't change their other habits too.
100%. If someone is stopping porn and substituting it for one or multiple other addictions - they're not going to achieve the sobriety and personal growth they're wishing to achieve.
...I agree...that's what some alcoholics do ...they stop drinking but pick up smoking severley like a smokestack...and wind up dying from cancer instead.....
Totally. And they rationalise it by saying "I'll deal with what kills me first.." Apparently 80% of addicts do this - there is research on this; on coaddictions. Much harder to detect with behavioural addictions imo.
Day 116 of Sobriety from Internet Addiction Day 139 from Porn + Dating apps Day 1 of Meditation Hahaha oh god.. I've actually written another entry but noFap decided to fart and come up with an error message+ log me out so this is the 2nd attempt to write an entry for today. I will never get back those 4 paragraphs but oh well. I've started to understand how it feels to feel healthy. Since incorporating exercise, nutrition (whole food) diet I've already noticed effects on my mood, health, emotions and mind. I think it's been a week or less so I'm excited to see how I feel after for example a month of eating well. I feel much more motivated to attend to my personal affairs and it feels like I'm finally living. Like my intentions and sights are set on things that matter and it's only growing. I've also been able to work much better now at work and focus far more easily especially when I incorporated nutrition. I had a trigger today where an AI image generator generated a sexual image without a sexual prompt. It was my first time playing with it actually. So that was definitely triggering and brough up ideas like what else I could prompt. But I thought through all that I;ve worked for, how I'd feel after acting out and the realistic repurcussions + reached out to NoFap Forum and hit the emergency button and that was exactly what I needed. My mood changed and I afterwards chucked a healthy wank - no porn/images etc. I'm keen to make the most of these days count. I fell off the meditation for one day but I will sit and meditate tonight. Take care guys/gals.
Day 117 of Sobriety from Internet Addiction Day 140 from Porn + Dating Apps Great day, good chats with friends, co-workers and even people I come across along the way. My emotions are so much more regulated and it's so much easier to chat to others, develop rapport etc. I've been so much more effective and quick thinking at work. Got along super well with my girlfriend's mum - who thinks I'm attractive... I will take the compliment haha. It's a miracle. There is much more peace, stability and energy especially since I changed my nutrition on April 10. That opened up a whole new door way for me. But none of this would be possible if I didn't decide to give up porn, dating apps and compulsive internet use.
Day 120 of Sobriety from Internet Addiction Day 2 from Porn Day 143 from Dating Apps I slipped with provocative content/images + edging for 4 hours yesterday. What triggered it was playing with Facebook and Meta AI and giving into the thoughts of experimenting just a little bit more with my fantasy. The allure was that I could create whatever I wanted. That spiked my dopamine. Once I started it was just impossible to get off the train as is the same with all addictions. I feeling fucking awful about it and I wish I didn't do it but I'm not going to let that moment define me. I will say this - that I completely caught me by surprise. I have never even used an image generator. I had a think about resetting my time and although it makes sense on a technical and almost moral level to the community, I do also want be realistic and take into account the progress I've made and am making. Not get too perfectionistic about it. If I was abstinent from pornography for a year but then watched it one day in October, looking back on that year I'd still have 364 days where I wasn't engaging with that addiction. I did not even want to engage with other bottom lines/addictive behaviours. Now I'm going to indulge myself in a healthy breakfast and visit my favourite organic shop. Adios
Day 121 of Sobriety from Internet Addiction Day 1 From Porn and Dating Apps I had a relapse after almost 5 months- just was too triggered from the AI generator and dipped my toe back in it. Then from that point I spent 8 hrs looking for porn + going on a specific dating app to get nudes and edging throughout. Not good. I'm going to make another thread. I still maintain my sobriety from IA and I'm eating whole foods but I am going to need time to recover from this last relapse (12 HR total). Some things I can do to speed up the changes are: Exercise Cold showers/Icebaths Getting outside Meditating Hopefully this time around I can do my recovery even better than last time. Peace and love guys.
you're not really serious about this program bro...and if you're doing it alone..that's even worse. Need to get into the program and maybe with an accountability partner......
