Date is 6 Feb 2020, relapsed a hour ago. I was good but now feeling terrible. I want to express my dirty self to you all which has been hidden. I am shy outside but inside I am person who is dirty thinker. I use to watch porn and that porn is not stimulating me anymore so I turned toward degrading porn. I also started chatting but nobody likes to chat a male. So I started chatting with female IDs and pretending to be a female I started to degrade myself to level unimaginable. I started enjoying attention I was getting as fake female IDs. I got addicted. I use to like dominating males and became submissive in role. Now I want to get out of this I am finding it hard. So decide to keep a diary in this forum and will Keep updating myself. I really hate myself for a person I have become. I want to change. Porn is like a burning stick in cold, if you hold it your hand will burn and if you stay away........
