Tomorrow will be my 13th day, last time I was relapsed on that day. This time I want to do 21 days, no matter what happens. Urges are coming, but i'm not gonna relapse, not interested anymore in P. I just hate it. P destroyed my life, maybe I don't have self control. Feeling guilty but don't have any option, time will not get revers. I just want to complete my 21 days of challenge, this way I can at least break my decade's longest streak. I just don't want to relapse. Please god give me some strength. I'm desperately want to do more than 21 days. I'm feeling something is coming from that part, without doing anything. Can't check because I just ignore touching it. Touches only at bath, pee time, no more than that. I just holding back my hand. Urges are happening from few days, but today is special, I'm again on same position of I was on last time. I'm spending to much time on forum, reading others success stories, their experiences, but somehow it's triggering down there, why, because on that stories and threads they share their urges, having sex with girl. And I'm just getting erection only reading. I don't want this anymore, I want to do 21 days only. Nothing else. No changes in body. I'm getting tired so easily, no exercise. Depression. I just want to do 21 days, but these urges. They are not strong but still....
Day 13 /21 "Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough." - Og Mandino
Day 21 /21 challenge completed. My highest streak was 21 days decade ago, completed. New record continues.