Beginning now, I am going on a reset. For the first week, I am going NO PMO, with strict abstinence. After the 7 days, I will go for No Porn Only (M.O will be acceptable, within set parameters). Reward when I accomplish my 7 days challenge: Get a chick-fil-a on the weekend. Punishment if I fail: Will have to do strict NO PMO for an additional 3 weeks. Starting Tomorrow (Friday 03/08) I will post my 7 days challenge on this thread. *I PLEDGE TO BE HONEST, AND DILIGENT IN THIS PROCESS, FOR MY OWN SAKE AND THE SAKE OF THOSE AMONG US WHO ARE HAVING THE SAME DIFFICULTIES IN THIS LIFE.* R.R
Day 1/7. - complete. self note: quick trigger while scrolling on insta, and short clip on youtube. contraction in the gut/pelvic area. did not falter.
Day 2/7 - complete. Had a major trigger around 7:30pm, a craving to see something to match my sexual appetite. thoughts such as 'im just gonna check it, nothing big', to 'I need to go all in so that i can finally be fully satisfied and won't do it again.', to 'as long as its not dark p its okay, no biggies'. all these thoughts came with intensity in the pelvic, gut area. but i remained my abstinence. thank you God for that. i feel the grace by not falling into such lustful action.
Day 3/7 - complete. no m. warning signs: mind trying to make concessions. if only naked women but not sex, then its okay. when it actually is not ok. it is activating the same neurons systems, the same addictive habits as when watching hardcore p. novelty = gives a high, which is not allowed in this challenge. Strictly clear, no images or videos of nude girls, just watching it satiates the high. its a drugged state of mind. the challenge is to take a reset from those activations of addictive patterns. plus ask myself, 'what am i trying not to feel at this moment?' that will bring attention to my inner restless, vagueness, and pain thats underneath the pleasure seeking motivation. compassionate inquiry. tenderly being with the trigger when happens. not fighting it, as it brings greater attention to it. or just go for a walk, go to the basement and play with dog etc. any distractions can be taken if the tendencies is building up and getting too strong.
Day 4/7 - complete. As I have a mild cold, haven't been on my laptop for much today, which is helping me with not falling into the temptations
Day 5/7 - complete. temptations still arising. looking for naked bodies pretending its harmless but its not. it should be treated as porn.
Day 6/7 - complete. triggers of watching nude videos. nude videos are not optional. need deep, total reset.
Day 7/7 completed. I will extend no PMO for two more days, as i want to make sure i am not watching any sexually stimulating contents. i will do +2days, until monday morning. will follow up here.
You got this. I really encourage setting up a few things: Put a time block on social media and Youtube. E.g. give yourself a minute a day. Give the passcode to someone you trust. Even if you know the passcode, the extra friction is a deterrent and a reminder you should be doing something else. Put an adult content filter on all your devices. Same deal. Added friction and deterrent.
21 Days No P challenge thread: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/21-days-of-no-p-m-o-limited.358181/