Proud of you, bro! Keep going! I started practicing meditation 2 months ago and i must say that it really helps me be more aware of my thoughts and emotions. But sitting down and really focusing on your breath and nothing else is still kinda but it get better!
Update day 3: I think having little stress and keeping yourself calm really helps. Keeping my thoughts on track is something i still have to learn. I noticed that everytime i'm bored and i'm not mindful, sexual images and past porn videos pop up in my head.
You can actually use apps on android and apple to help you time a meditation session.... the one I know is 'Calm', which is a great App for timing a mindfulness session. Some of the features you have to pay for, but the timer itself is free... For me, the reason I am trying to give up PMO is that I have seen the world of porn out there, and after I immerse myself in it, I feel terrible. It is not really a world that I want to be a part of. It takes sex out of context of a healthy relationship and makes something less of it. I want to rediscover the beauty of sex. Also, the main reason I use PMO is as a way to cope with stress. I really would like to find a freedom, and a better way to relax! But, this is not easy to do!
Update day 4: Felt the first withdrawal symptoms this morning, felt incredibly horny waking up but my mind was clearer, less foggy. Today was really challenging since i suddenly freaked out about my studies, my exams and my uncertain future. The panic spread in my body and my mind. There was an increasing pressure in my mind to get out of the situation. "Make it go away" those words kept repeating. Trying to distract myself of the responsibility of my problems, my life. My thoughts looked for a quick solution. But this time i faced them. I waited. I calmed myself down. I faced the responsibility, the stress, the sad realization about how unfair life is head on. "I can do this", "I am strong", "You can deal with this!" and it worked.
BlackWhiteLotus, incredible moment there! You stopped mid-crisis and calmed down. I take a bow to you dude. That is not easy to do. Well done. Also, it sounds like you are seriously stressed at the moment. Courage and strength to you! I also had a seriously stressed day today. I am also freaking out about my studies, which I am doing in a language which is not my own, so learning that too. I am on day 7 today, so end of first week. I am also experiencing withdrawl symptoms.... my body is so used to coping with stress online and with PMO.... I suppose I need to get some more exercise....when I find some time! Good luck with exams dude....
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Update day 5: Felt incredible moody, tired and restless today. Almost to a point which feels really uncomfortable and unbearable. I'm just hoping that it will get better...
Hang in there! I am feeling also stressed at the mo. Day 8 and trying to get a balance.... I am thinking I need exercise. But I also hope we will learn how to cope with life without PMO!
We are almost at the end of the week BlackWhiteLotus! I am sure things will get better. Sunday is coming... Day 9 for me, and I still haven't gone for exercise. Also stressed and need to relax. I know this is where I am vulnerable. Stressed and needing to relax. My brain in this state usually says...mmmmm online is good for me. But I know that is the worse place I can go!!!
Update day 7: My Problem has always been edging, my mind always tries to convince me that there is no harm in just caressing and touching my dick. I think i have to remind myself that it is not about the actual orgasm., the physical Thing, but rather a mental battle. My mind needs to get off the addiction called fapping. My mind Needs to stop getting stimulated by Pictures and Videos. And i guess that takes time. But i am glad that i made it to the end of week 1. Posting everyday has probably helped me by staying accountable. Thank you to everyone for supporting me
Lets turn this 7 days into 70! Then, 700! Answering you, I started this journey cos I was so tired of lies...and to spent 8 hours a day searching for porn... I didnt know but porn was influencing my sex life. This is the best decision i made ever!