Nearly 15 years into recovery and still beginning

Welcome mate! It’s good you’re wanting to do better, and are committed to the cause. No matter how many years it’s been or how hard it is, as long as you’re trying and taking it seriously you’re on a great path!

Being vigilant is a good thing, and over time it’s a reliable tool especially when in moments of stress and boredom, it trains your brain to look out for it.

It’s different for everyone, but we all have to learn what our triggers are, and how they appear. Being vigilant will help you filter out the noise, and see what you’re doing more clearly, giving you time to make a rational decision to move on and engage your brain with something else instead of your thoughts.