Hello there! im creating new thread for my recent updates. im doing fine, surprisingly. had a really demanding urges few days before and i didnt relapse, which is good. im on my 8th day and still counting.
Bad news today. I regret that today is almost a good day. Its not a perfect one, but, good. Im doing fine, minding my own bussiness. And suddenly i just relapse. I fail again and again at my 9th day streak. I feel dirty and all and all. I think im back to this stagnant period where i relapse every 10 days or so. No need to worry anyway, im not giving up. But it is so sad that porn still lead my brain to do this f thing sometimes. I hope i can find a way, another strategy or whatever it's called, to maintain my streaks. No. It's not like, days is the most important parameter of my journey. It's just one of it. of course i'll fix my routine and do my best to get a better life without pmo. Ok thats all. I have no idea what to tell anything further.
okay this is such a long time since i was visiting nofap forum. as we all ever went through it was relapse and go on journey with this struggle. i still cant stop myself to access pornography and i still can feel it damages my brain so bad. my urges since the last time: Tuesday, 16 January 2024 Saturday, 20 January 2024 Thursday, 01 February 2024 Tuesday, 20 February 2024 (no relapse) Wednesday, 21 February 2024 (no relapse) Sunday, 25 February 2024 Tuesday, 05 March 2024 (no relapse) Saturday, 16 March 2024 Tuesday, 26 March 2024 Thursday, 28 March 2024 Friday, 19 April 2024 and yes today i relapse and i feel guilty. but it's time to move on. let's begin again! for this kind of self-control-lack, i need distraction to make me forget about my urges. ok, that's it for now. if you read my note here, please give me suggestion to not easily failing and falling to the need of porn again. thanks!
I would aim to focus on WHY you gain the urge to relapse, rather than every time you relapse. The urges arrive for a reason, if you can figure that out you can move closer to overcoming each urge.
yes, of course it does. but i think the main reason why i cant get rid of the urge, is because my addiction to porn itself. i still try figuring out how to live my life better. and so i cant control myself to not access porn and stop pmo. thanks for your reply
porn is a symptom, not a cause. There are things in your life which are very difficult Im sure, leading you to this self-destructive addiction. It is the same for all of us. We have triggers, mood swings, fatigue, panic attacks, anhedonia, weight loss/gain, relationship issues, self-confidence struggles, etc that lead us to "solve" these things with a horrible addiction. Try and write down your feelings every day, especially after relapse. What triggered you? What were you doing right before the relapse? It is through this method that we gain insight into ourselves, and stop the train before it leaves the station. Good luck in your journey! we are here to support you my friend
