Hi guys and perhaps girls. I'm a guy in my early 30's from Norway. I've been masturbating since I was about 10, and been gradually moving to harder and harder porn. I always knew I was on a bad slope, but I brushed it off every time I was done. The last few years I've been graduating from pretend rape porn to forced bi with cum eating instructions videos, girls basically not being nude or sexy at all, just calling me a faggot and telling me I've got a small cock. I've even watched videos where the girl "forces" me to jerk off to gay porn or transsexual porn, all the while calling me nasty stuff. It actually went as far as me signing up to gay sites to get hit on, just because I needed the thrill. I'm not even gay, never been attracted to a man or anything like it. I've just ended up fantasizing about getting forced to do gay stuff. Pretty obscure. Also I've gotten extremely into the cuckold fantasy, where I'm "forced" to watch my girlfriend have sex with other guys, and again "forced" to suck their cocks or get fucked in the ass. I can't even have sex with her without fantasizing about her getting rammed in front of me by a huge cock. I feel horrible about it. So now I've tried to get off porn for a while. I deleted my 100's of gigs of porn, unregistered from the gay site, and stayed off masturbating for 11 days. I've had sex with my girlfriend, and I just want to be able to orgasm with her without my mind being somewhere else. Do you guys have any tips for me? I'm really trying to stay off porn and masturbating this month, but I'm "allowed" to have sex with her and cum when she blows me.
Keep up the pace, friend. Longtime exposure to porn (and a built up tolerance) leads to warped sexual tastes. It happens, and isn't that uncommon (you're not alone!). It took a lot of time and a lot of porn to get your brain like this, and it'll take a lot of time without porn to get it back to the way it was. As for tips, I'd say know and avoid your triggers (anything that sexually stimulates you). If it isn't your partner that's causing it, then its a red flag. Also, please know that this isn't easy. Its not the end of the world if you stumble along the way, it doesn't make you a bad person. When you get back up after you fall, that's how you know you're changing for the better. Hope that helps..Um, question. Why are there quotation marks around the word "allowed?" Just wondering.
Hello, OP is right, it's not easy, but there are so many benefits, extra time in your day, after I PMOed I always had that nagging feeling in the back of my head that I wasn't as good as I could be that day. My tip: If you start to feel the urge...get up and do something else...What I do is get up and take a 15 minute brisk walk, maybe listen to music...anything to remove your mind and body from that situation. Good luck to you! You can do this!
Thanks @Open Parasol and @Justme7670 , I really appreciate your words. It's really nice to know I'm not alone on this. As for the quotation marks, it was to say the only way I can orgasm is if I'm doing it with her. Trying to re-program my brain, sort of. We had sex today, so I hope I can tomorrow will be easier. 12 days down, 19 to go.
