the situation has become messed up. For the past two weeks, urges have increased as it is holiday and i had very little female interaction. I tried everything ( exercise, avoiding social media etc) but its not too effective. This is probably the fifth time it has happened, that i ended up looking at hot girls pics on instagram and got massive erections. It has happened twice that i ended up looking at them for 10-20 minutes!. Last night i almost had precum. However , the only good thing about this is that i did NOT look at any porn or anything that i used to masturbate to. In fact , my intention of looking at them was to stop thinking about my fetish and replace it with normal stuff. Now all i want to know is, did i relapse , and should i reset ? ( cuz I did not look at any porn, and I did NOT touch my penis).
For me, this should be counted under the flag of pornography. Especially if you start seeking for pictures on purpose.
I honestly dont think recovery is possible while scrolling social media. That toxic shit is designed to lead us to PMO. get off instagram!
