I neeed help, I am on day 41, the first 35 days were good, but the last week, each day feels harder than the previous day, the first 30 days I stopped looking at women in the streets at all, a few day ago I couldn't stop myself, I keep looking at women(normal looks from so far), I used not to look at pictures of women when I encounter them on youtube or the internet, now i barely can stop myself sometimes, I didn't fantasize the first 35 days, yesterday I fantasized deliberately for a minute, today I catched myself fantasazing about myself jerking off like there is no tomoroww, or imagining myself pounding my favorite actress , until now, i didn't look at porn, I didn't edge' I didn't play with my penis, but I am afraid I might end up doing so, I tried taking a shower, I went on a walk, I did some pushups, but it seems that this is going to end up with a relapse, your advice please
If you have to give in just don't do it to porn. Some might disagree with me, but sometimes it's too hard to give up porn AND Masturbation all at once. The Porn has to go first that's most important. If you feel like you HAVE to have that release at least do it with your own thoughts. Don;t relive your favorite porn scenes either, just your own fantasy.
The urges kind of went away, I think they did rise mainly because I wasn't busy with anything the last few days, all what I was doing is spending my time doing nothing important, my brain had nothing to focus about for days, so it started craving pmo, and yes I agree with you about the masturbation part, I am planning to never pmo again but to be realistic i know there is a chance lf relapse, if I ever relapse I will try to M without P, I don't know if that is possible, my brain craves the dopamine of porn, the last time when i failed against the urge I decided to watch porn and masturbate but i decided to watch 3 or 4 vudeos and do it quickly so that I don't ruin my dopamine receptors and my recovery the sale as if I edge for hours watching 20 videos of porn, I wasn't able to do that, my brain kept asking for watching more porn, even if I watched a few videos and masturbated, my brain was like: MORE, MOOOORE, until I watched porn for hours then I finished.
You just gotta find that determination and will to give it up for good. Not being able to perform with my Fiance was my wake up call and gave me the will to stop.
