A few days ago, during my midday walk, as we all know walking is a good thing to do both for health and recovery, I found myself reflecting, talking to myself about how bad porn is, and how beautiful my life has became now that i am 30 days without porn, and thinking about what else should i do to continue on this journey, just in the middle of this, a sudden urge gripped me. It was like a strong brainwave, tempting me to message a girl I used to engage in sexting with, my brain started fantasizing, craving and telling me to text her so we can sexchat with eachothers. A small voice in my brain questioned, "Doesn't this contradict what I was just saying about the harmful effects of porn?" few seconds ago, but my brain was justifying and rationalizing it to me, telling me it is worth it, send a text, just a 30 or 40 seconds later, as quickly as the urge arose, it vanished. This experience served as a powerful reminder of a lesson I've always known: as porn addicts, our willpower can be easily overridden by our addiction, and our brains can rationalize anything in an instant.This highlights the importance of avoiding triggers because once our brains begin to rationalize, we become powerless to control ourselves.
See it coming... Be prepared and then do something different. And as a Christian I have the perfect tool for pushy thoughts. I've learned that I can make captive every thought.
Yes, please share with us you grip your tool, um, I mean, how you tool your grip, no, uh, what tool you use to grip your urges. Sorry, I couldn't help myself, LOL.
