I want to be free

I definately see where you are coming from . I believe for my self at least for the first couple an perhaps longer . Separation is important ( out of sight out of mind ). Then I can start to ween myself off this addiction .

 

I need to get serious again about this descision to quit . I am too relaxed right now

 

I don't know why I am so lethargic and lack motivation .... Argggh

 

Need a game plan . Now is the best time !

 

getting back on track.

 

Not removing my phone from the house at night has proven to be very dangerous for me . Back to the old plan starts today .

 

I am learning more about myself . I don't like to procrastinate . Although I have been a chronic procrastinator . I am learning to manage my time better . Not putting stress on me when with deadlines and last minute projects .

 

@thechosenone.


Exercise is important . Which I have been neglecting . I felt great when I worked out regularly . I have been sick of late . I have had a lot of energy to workout .
Day 11: I have been getting fantastic sleep . I don't feel an urge to stay up late as before . I get home and go to bed . Which has been key . Leaving my phone in my car . Doesn't allow me to stay up late doing mindless searches , eventually stumbling onto porn sites

 

Brain fog is dissapating

 

Day 15 . Room is clean And organized . There seems to be a connection between and organized room and a healthy mind . Whenever I go on a binge . My room is a warzone. But my energy level is high . Due partly to gettin good sleep . Not searching for hours and hours late ion the night . been here before . But never in the midst of my busy season . Usually too stressed and need a release . Now I am at the point where understanding the ramifications of a momentary relapse . This year I have displayed more self control than in years past . It's been a summer of HARD Work . Somewhere down the line will pay dividends . I am going to Sweden in sept . A long time goal of mine . I have worked my butt off for the opprotunity to travel . The delayed gratification will be so rewarding and sweet

 

What a difficult weekend . I can't believe it didn't P&M . I was away from home . Lots of new surroundings . I was completely out of my routine . I am so emotionally drained

 

This has been a bad month . Same old song and dance . I have been reflecting on things! Asking deep questions . Ready to come back STRONG !