I know what I have to do but I don't know if I have the strength to do it

I think for a lot of us here, we PMO without realising there is sometimes a deeper reason behind it. For some people, they PMO because they are overly horny, but for a large number of others I think there are things that are happening or have happened in their life that they have not addressed. Unfortunately PMO addiction keeps going until we address it.

When I started recovery, I was sick to death of my life. I was fed up with my job, my boss, the flat I lived in and my relationships. When I finished work I would just go home and PMO to pick up my mood, instead of fixing my life. When I started slowly addressing things in my life, the addiction grew slightly weaker and gave me space to recover.

I am not saying this is the case for you, but if you are struggling to maintain a streak, it could be worth looking at the bigger picture and at least consider what could be "pissing you off" in your life, or forcing that urge.

 

The biggest problem which make us doubt about this is the lack of feedback and benefits while abstaining from PMO. Even on long streaks if you see that PIED (if you have it) is still there exactly as day 0 and you got no "super powers" at all (same mood, same problem as before and so on) your mood falls down. Basically, if even after 90 days you see absolute no difference in comparison to day 0, then the idea that this nopmo is not working at all take place into your head.

 

It's an up and down game. For me anyway. After a 30 day streak I had the best sex I ever had with my girl. But I kept going too much and went into flatline not being able to keep it up more than a couple of minutes. It's been 6 weeks since my last O and it was sex. For a whole week I was SOOO horny and felt normal again. Then out of the blue, MAJOR flatline. Been in it about 5 weeks. You want it to be like a cut healing, but sadly it doesn't work that way.

 

The problem with some.of us is that even after 90 days you won't have a single feedback that this is working. You went nto flatline a couple of times but at day 30 you were able to have sex, and even after that period. But what if even after full 90 days you weren't able to have a single hard on during sex?

 

OP, this video just came up on my timeline. I am not sponsoring or pushing it in anyway, but I would be interested to hear your opinion and thoughts after watching..

Why You Shouldn't Resist Watching P*rn

 

Yes I can see how that is super frustrating but no single brain is the same and they all heal differently. Think about how long it took being addicted to become this way. That might help put things in perspective. I've come to terms that it may be 3 years or more before I'm completely well again.