Had an urge today, because of a feeling of shame, my brain told me to pmo, not in a strong way to be honest, it was under control, I said no, but an idea came to my mind, on my nofap journey, I realized that always I watch porn/masturbate either because I am feeling sad, depresses, angry, shame, inadequacy, guilt, bored, lonely, stressed, or some other feeling, i don't recall the last time I masturbated because I was horny, sure when the urge comes I feel a power in my penis, but it comes from the fact that I am going to watch porn to numb some feelings, and when i did think about it, I trully don't remember the last time when I was horny, just horny, not sad or angry or depressed, it must have been a while.
