I am ashamed

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Samir01, Sep 12, 2017.

  1. Samir01

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    Hello, my name is Samir. I'm 26 and I'm single. For a long time, people or at least my entourage consider me a model. Besides, they continue to consider me as a model. When I was in high school I advised my friends on the benefit of remaining chaste. By the time my friends were interested in sexuality (M, P, G), I was totally opposite. I was not interested and some notion like M was misunderstood. I still remember the remarks of some of my friends who ask me how I control my sexual desires and thoughts. They advised me not to repress these desires too much, for on the days when they come in force, I will commit a Degas.
    Today the worst that I feared arrived. many of those friends who indulge in their sexual pleasure during a young age are getting married. and I am still single. Besides, I find it difficult to approach girls since it is not in my habits. I find myself today to masturbate myself, to watch P videos and worse still I consult sites and gay video. At first it was to compare my masculinity (sex, muscles) to that of others. But more and more I do it to feel a certain pleasure. To contemplate (appreciate) the muscles and size of the sex of these men.
    However, I am ashamed of what I do. I'm not proud of the man I've become and I'd like to change. become the innocent little boy I was in high school. I need your advice and suggestions
     
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  2. Beamer

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    Hi Samir,
    I am a gay from Belgium and felt the same as you do now. You should not feel ashamed, we are just human and you don't hurt anyone but yourself. I'm here because i want to stop the porn addiction too and take control of my life again. I often feel lonely and that's how i got addicted to porn, it just feels good then till it's over ofcourse. I'm kinda desperate so i want to try this. I hope it works cause i'm desperate 2.
    Take care, Luc