Hello, I just decided to actually STOP watching porn. In the last few years I noticed I was getting off to increasingly hardcore and degrading stuff. It took me time to admit this was destroying my self-confidence and probably also was a major cause of my erection problems in RL. The trigger was the realization that I was watching more and more of the so-called "cuckold porn" and that the humiliating captions in those pictures actually aroused me but I kept watching that stuff. This is horrible... What kind of a masochist am (was!) I to enjoy reading stuff calling me a sissy, being turned on by the idea of having my fiancee f***ed by a "real man" in front of me etc ??? Porn ruined my erections, self-confidence and screwed up my brain. NOW I WANT TO FIGHT BACK !!! I hope this is the right place to find the support I need to hold firm and rebuild my life. Eidolon
I hear you man... I just joined nofap yesterday. Masturbating to porn for as long as I have has really messed with me. And, like you, I got into the wife-sharing stuff pretty hard. The humiliation never turned me on but... the thought of my fiancee being with other guys gets me going and porn really fed that I'm certain. If you want to chat about building up healthy habits ways to cope with compulsions to use then drop me a message.
Hi Cymbaline, welcome on board !!! Good to read that you can relate because many people just can't understand the thrill in this deviant stuff. Afaiac, I believe I identify to the cuck (or at least want a very masculine guy to please my girl) because I feel neutered because I have ED because I watch porn, and the loop is looped. Get the idea? I'm at work right now. Be certain I'll drop you a message later. Good luck in your nofap journey!
I'm with you guys, been deep into the rabbits cuckold and humiliation hole the last few years. Trying to get out. So tired of it.
