Maybe my last post was not clear, so i will make it understandable. Most of my wet dream making me half awake, like i could felt the tension and cum was about to be busted, so it occurred me to half awake, also i just kept pushed my cum out, then i still felt like there's more, so i gave extra pushed, so until i felt empty then go to toilet wash and went back to sleep again. Im still scared whether this count as handfree masturbation... cause my wet dream i could felt everything and it occurred me to half awake.
You wouldn’t have done it when you were fully awake so it doesn’t count as a relapse. You could have woken yourself up but didn’t, that just means you need to reduce the sexual material you absorb while awake through music, tv, etc.
This situation similar past posted i made last year, technically when i was to cum while sleeping, it occured me to half awake, not me being half awake throughout the night. Technically some of my wet dream are woke up semen all over, or it woke me half, then i just let it all out, sometime i still felt remain cum and i just did extra to gave orgasm then go back to sleep, morning i wash later etc... So you think this is not wet dream? What the fcuk did i just handfree myself and didn't know? God my anxiety building up again
Ain't no way i can stop, it literally happening naturally, one time i was so scared of relapse, wet dream about to occured got me half awake again, after the first shot of cum, i stopped myself for extra released, the headache i had was insane, i thought i caught a stroke or something... In the middle of the night. So it's just average wet dream righr? Or my case is different?
The worst thing you can do is taking out your own life. The son of God sacrified himself to save us, and your life is precious in this world. You are alive because he loves you, and wants we all to be happy and free from anything that destroy or corrupts us. By wanting to be out of PMO, you are doing the best choice in your life. What happened to you is normal for everybody who is rebooting it's own brain to the ''factory state''. Weird things happens because you're rewiring your subconcious. Your mind doesn't accept that you are abstaining from a huge dose of pleasure, even knowing this is destroying your life. You didn't failed. This event was involuntary. I would suggest to stop fantazising and removing any potential triggering content that you've been facing. Keep strong brother, I believe you can get out of this addiction.
