The song is Go Ahead by Alicia Keys. Here are the lyrics: [Intro] Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh [Verse 1] Broken promises My heart you stole, lies you told Got the best of me Digging in my heart of gold (Hey) Used to look at you and see the possibilities (Yeah) I see you for who you are Boy, you've disappointed me [Pre-Chorus] I thought you gave me love Was never near enough Soon enough, time reveals Love wait of what is real Know all I need to know (And I know it) Boy, see, you gotta go (Bye, bye) What have you given me (Hey) But lies, lies? (Hey) [Chorus] Go ahead, go on and get up outta here Go ahead, baby You knew you was wrong You knew all along Must be crazy If you think I'ma fall for this anymore Everybody say no, no, no, no Everybody say no, no, no, no [Verse 2] Used to believe in every word you said, clouds my head (Hey) Leavin' me here to drown (Hey, hey, oh) Hopes and dreams, therefore dead You point your finger, tryna justify your mistakes (You're gonna justify) Our changes gon' be made So you best be on your way [Pre-Chorus] I thought you gave me love Was never near enough Soon enough, time reveals Love wait of what is real (So real) Know all I need to know (Yeah) Boy, see, you gotta go (Go) What have you given me But lies, lies? [Chorus] Go ahead, go on and get up out of here Go ahead, baby You knew you was wrong You knew all along Must be crazy If you think I'ma fall for this anymore Everybody say no, no, no, no Everybody say no, no, no, no [Bridge] No need to apologize, don't try to make it right I know, I should've known better When you took hold, I was sold Using fear to control, now it unfolds (Oh) Let me tell you right now what I'm gonna do Made up my mind, it's time and I'm through with you Nothing you can say or can do can make me change my mind [Chorus] So, just go ahead, go on and get up out of here Go ahead, baby You knew you was wrong You knew all along Must be crazy If you think I'ma fall for this anymore Everybody say no, no, no, no Everybody say no, no, no, no [Outro] Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh No, no, no, no, no Here's the actual song:
I suppose there are some parts of the song that ring true for me. Obviously, the "broken promises" and "lies" are probably accurate for most SO's. But, most SO's that I know about have stuck around, at least for awhile...oftentimes for a long while...so the main idea of the song isn't true. Many of us have held onto hope and given chance after chance, believing in the multitude of promises that "this time" will be different. We've chosen to stay for a variety of reasons, even when we knew we probably shouldn't, and we've stretched ourselves far beyond what we even thought possible. It's really difficult to accurately put into words the way we feel about our partners' PA. I have tried many times to describe my feelings to my husband, and I wrote him a letter once trying to sum it all up, but it seems that when you turn feelings into text, so much is lost in translation.
To an extent. I just want honesty. The constant lying makes me think more is going on and now the trust is completely gone. The lying and hiding is what causes problems. He used to make me feel like I wasn't wanted or unloved. I finally realised that I'm not the issue and I've been in a place of healing while still trying to help him. Love can't fix everything if the other person is unwilling to get help or to properly communicate.