Today I entered the 15th day, but the night before yesterday when I realized that I was reaching two weeks I started thinking about it and then also dreaming about adult scenes. and on the 14th day I started looking for pictures of adult stars - their faces, I didn't see explicit scenes or pictures, just two faces and one lingerie pic - thats it , does it still count as watching porn? dont know if its need mentioning but after about 30 years i got bored from "regular" adult content and started exploring gay and transsexual content, even though that in real life im not attracted to men, my experience on the 14th day was getting a glimpse of a transsexual adult performer, and as i mentioned only 2-3 faces and one lingerie picture but very briefly.
That is up to you how you want to define your goals, but if you're asking here, I'd say you know the answer is yes. If you're searching for it and you were getting aroused by it, then it's like edging and starting to fill your reward center with the dopamine it is craving. But the good news is that you stopped, whether you consider it a relapse to porn or not. And I know the draw to gay material or other things you might not normally think is part of your arousal. PMO can escalate things, so best if you can continue to work on your goal of eliminating it. Show yourself some self-compassion today. Don't let shame enter the picture and ruminate in your mind. Stand up and move forward is all you can do.
