day 0 ..... here i begin again relapse after study then watch anime from afternoon to evening guilt * 100
Yeah I know it feels like shit. But just focus on getting through one day. It has been horrible for me, too. But as each day passes, I feel better and better. If you feel like you might relapse, come to this forun and try posting a thread or just reading some success stories. It will help.
No man, finding things for free is my speciality. Why pay money if it's not going to improve anything in your life. I don't even pay for Netflix. You can find everything on Netflix, on telegram anyway.
It's about appreciation and experience for me. I know I'll enjoy it, plus the service makes it easy to watch a film without potential frustration.