Today I celebrate 30 days and I am grateful to have come this far it has been a roller coaster and I definitely in the Shock stage and just coming to grips with this addiction I love this community as it deals with this addiction head on
Thank you much appreciated Today Day 32 Hitting flatline and allowing myself to process emotions and feelings when they come up
Really important to talk of benefits 1. Increased clarity 2. Hitting the gym almost every day 3. Starting to meditate 4. Feel present in my life 5 . Journalling is so crucial to this journey and taking a real diagnostic look at my life
Congrats on your sobriety! Keep at it and the rewards will continue to get exponentially better. For me, getting sober and staying stopped was an ongoing battle for many years. Things did not begin to materialize until I fully surrendered to my addiction and vowed to actively work a program of recovery consistently one day at a time. I am here to report, it's been working. Wishing you the best bro!
I’m day 32 and experiencing the flatline know how it’s feels. The flatline is such an appropriate name for it feels like a flat beer or Coca Cola. Just got to stay focus and know that a day without PMO is a good day.
Day 40 Definitely in flatline I have most of the Symptoms - Lethargy - Depression - Strong memories that lead to uncontrollably crying - Little motivation - Loneliness The Flatline is part of the withdrawal period and I believe through my own experience is the start of meeting you for the first time without the compulsion and addiction it’s like you are being stripped right back and literally stopped in your tracks My porn addiction is one of compulsion and running , running away from myself trying to stay one step ahead of the pain or fear or any other emotion that I run from Flatline is the hardest thing I have ever done. It is the loneliest , most profound sense of meeting one self What keeps me going? I don’t know but I believe there is something greater than me giving me the courage to crawl through this
Very well done mate . Keep going . On day 31 myself , also have hit the flatline , which if I didn’t know about ,would have shocked me back into PMO , but we know we need to go through this . So let’s do it !
thank you bro . Still going , on day 37 . Hope you still staying strong brother ? Yesterday was a tough day . I felt stressed , and my brain immediately started thinking about PMO . I was able to resist though . It’s the no motivation thing with the flatline that is driving me mad . The first 2-3 weeks my motivation was up , and then suddenly I hit the flatline , and it disappeared .
The flatline is cruel, I don't get why it happens and it has happened to me. If this was another addiction, our withdrawals would have been finished in the first few weeks. It doesn't seem fair that when we are doing the right thing and in my case trying to have better sex with my wife I get flatline and have ED issues. It led me back to porn, but this time I won't let the flatline ruin my streak.
ya bro … that’s exactly it . It suddenly makes you want to run back to porn for a few different reasons , but then I keep thinking how disappointed I would be if I did, and broke this streak ( the longest I’ve had ) , but it’s a constant argument in my head . Today I few times I had those thoughts when you try and justify a relapse . physically I can see differences in my skin quality , brighter eyes . I also notice my eye contact is more intense , and confident . I’m loving all these things …. I just have lost the motivation feeling I had in the first few weeks . Another day down though . Day 38 . Let’s hope things get better . Wishing you the best with your sobriety brother
Thanks for the reply . Ya , from what I’ve read it has something to do with the dopamine withdrawal symptoms, but man it sucks . The mind really starts to fight back
It's tough because of the broken feeling, then the porn fixes it, but that's only temporary as the vicious cycle continues. I'll ride it out for the long run and try to change almost everything in my current life. This way I'll be so distracted, porn and MO should not be on my mind as much as it is today.
yeah bro...head on in this...what was happening in my life was impacted by this addiction, all through college where I was establishing a career..and man it destroyed it.It was the secret life lived with other addicted ppl. Wish I knew about this site then,but Im glad I'm here