I have literally lost count how many times I have tried and also I have been someone who doesn't fap. Even after 180+ days, 1 single fap over the course of time has lead me to keep doing it. Recently I have been very disciplined, changing my lifestyle in various ways and trying to live a better life. Yet, stress and burnout catch up with me in unexpected rare moments. Then that 1 fap can lead to a spiral of further relapses. I was accountable to a friend of mine for 4 days and all went great until I woke up in the middle of the night feeling drained and I masturbated. Then that lead to more urges eventually watching porn and masturbating few times yet again. Now I have taken a shower and I am starting over again. But I am tired of this addiction to masturbation, due to stress I masturbate and then masturbation brings stress. I will try again this time journaling here. I know many of my brothers are suffering with this addiction. For me, its right time to stop and not look back. What will motivate me? Saturday 20th April 2024 Day zero 02:36 hrs.
You're not starting over. If you look at a line graph, there are lots of ups and downs, sometimes dramatically, even in successful ones, but they all go upward. Counting day after day has only added fear and pressure to my existence, I don't even think about it anymore. People who have high batting averages don't go back to 0% when they strike out. You're still doing fine, just keep doing the things that support your mental health and bring you success. Good luck.
