12 hrs into day 3. Studied for almost 6 hours now. And I'm getting my study drive back. There are only 3 places where I do MO. I don't have a problem with P. Devised a strategy for tackling these 3 places. Feeling energetic . One day at a time works like a gem.
ALHAMDULILLAH. your mind can control your body, and you can control your mind through the knowledge, and knowledge is the directly coming from heaven.
Good to see you get right back up. Have you read anything or thought about seeing a counselor? Counseling and reading great books have helped me a lot.
Day 7 I have more energy and desire in my life. I’ve been tired all the time for years but after a week of abstinence my mood and energy are on the rise. Posting here and reading all your posts is a huge help. Thanks guys.
Day 59/60. Woke up to some distraughting emotions. It's days like these that make days the grid of life feel monotonous. Powering through it second by second. This is life grinding you into a blade ready to cut anything when the opportunities come knocking on your door. 1 More day til 66%. I'm passed half way point. I accept that there will be days like this, not because I choose these days; but because these days are the pre-requisites for what I choose to believe will one day pay off.
Check-in 7/90. No relapse last night. I slept on bed during which time I had an eagerness to M and many P pictured in my mind. But I put my hands away of my body and put my cellphone away on the desk. Yes, It's tough but I could and will control myself. Cheers up everybody!