Quick explanation of my journey- iam 21 y.o. and started with M at 9 and with P in 12 and till my 19 i was doing that on evry fuc*king daily base. There was not a day when i did not PMO all these years (maybe when i was really sick and had a flu or something) during these years i developed lot of P fetishes and started to watch harder and harder and extreme porn as almost everybody here. That is how it works. In my 13 i had my first panic attack before sleep, then i did not know what is happening with me, when i was 15 i realised i have a strong social anxiety, i had more missed days in school that days i was at school, i just rather stayed at home and sleep than go to school, i started missing family birthdays, meetings, because i was so social anxious, then when i was 19 i started nofap, just on my own, and now its been 2 years since i struggling with this evil stuff, i turned to God during nofap and i am thankful for that but my depression is just hopeless- bad sleeping schedule (going to sleep at 5am waking up at 2pm) bad apetite because of depression, lost lot on weight (187cm 60kg) very skinny, sometimes i just can not eat all day, getting of from my job, lost interest in things i loved in past ( playing football, going to gym,) any motivation to do anything even go to brush my teeth seems as hard as for normal people build pyramides. My doctor prescriped me an SSRIs from start but it helped me just with panic attack nothing else, then started to take SNRIs and thats the same story. I had never sucidal toughts and i love my self and i love Jesus i think there is something to live for but my brain just losing hope, sometimes i just think about death that this can be the only solution i am just so tired, but i do not gonna give up, never. Now i am going to treat my depression and addiction to one complex in our country which is specialized on addictions and it is also psychiatry, i will be there for 3 months, it was my idea to go there and i hope this will finally help me. I just wanted to say this to you, maybe you could tell me something that can help me mentally i will be happy and maybe there is somebody with same issue. (sorry for my english)
I struggled with depression not too long ago and it took years for me to realise that I was depressed. I spent years numbing myself with PMO, alcohol, parties, junk food, video games and TV only for the depression to get worse. I would be in the middle of a corporate meeting, and have the urge to cry uncontrollably, the thought of socialising with people would send me into a panic, I would just stay up all night dreading the next day. It wasn't until the depression became unbearable that I decided to see someone, and it might have been one of the best decisions I made. For me, depression was basically a whole load of emotional issues I had to break down and understand without the crutch of PMO. I take my hat off to you for deciding to go, things can only go up from here. All the best.
heh, imagine how much better the world would be if people were allowed to cry uncontrollably in corporate meetings. strange how we have to wear masks so much to "present well" when its chaos on the inside. thanks for this honest and insightful post!
Dude… this is classic symptoms from porn and masturbation. Excessive use of porn and masturbation combined with bad living habits produces the result you currently have.. I’m so sorry you discovered porn and masturbation at such a young age. but your body and mind can heal! There is still hope. Please read the writings of a guy named “soaring eagle”. Type on Google: “soaring eagle NoFap” you can heal yourself… you are an extremely bad case of pmo addiction but there is hope, please read his writings..
I know SSRIs not gonna solve my problem with porn but i got diagnosed with hard depression so doctor gave me these from start. But yes, it is so weak medicament for this kind of problem and intensity of brain damage. But for someone SSRIs could be good, i mean for mental disorders i am not talking about addictions.
My boyfriend got into masturbation and porn in his teens and he says it became a daily thing for him after a few years. We talked about it a few times but it was not a big issue between us. During Covid he went on SSRI's for anxiety at the time and found these had an interesting effect on his sex drive. He's fine when we get things on together, but found after a few months on SSRI's that his general level of horniness and urges went down and were just way less. It was a while before he realized that he had not needed to masturbate or had an urge to but told me that is was quite relaxing not having the urge to do so. He didn't set out to start NoFap all but found out about it after researching why his masturbation urge had gone away (and porn). His doctor has said that it would now be OK to come off the SSRI but he has chosen to stay on until the next checkup due to the benefits it has brought.
@danielhappylife give it a try the following recipe to deal with mood swings, depression, anxiety, better sleep besides many other. 150-200ml warm milk 1/8-1/2(adjust the amount as it suits you) teaspoon of organic turmeric powder 1-2 pinches of black pepper powder Sugar(if needed) Mix all the ingredients with the warm milk and have it 45 mins before the sleep. Works better than the drugs.
