I even had the funeral for my grandpa yesterday, and I really felt like i will take care of my family and make them proud and now I’m sitting in the corner of my room. Just what was i doing my whole life, just doing nothing important and only running away as soon as things got hard just like now. I’m again getting so angry at myself, I just can’t forgive myself for today. How can I be so stupid, no way my family would be proud of me knowing what I’m doing they all have so much expecations from me. I felt like dying from all this pressure from my own expectations and from my family I ran away to cope with porn as soon as i felt these emotions. I’m done with this, I don’t care anymore.
I think all of us are using P to cope with stress and/or trauma. I know I was. part of recovery is getting help with that stuff too - figuring out how to reduce it in your life, finding a therapist, eating healthier and living a better life. One of things that helps me is giving myself the excuse to take it easy / time off for PMO recovery. yknow like when celebrities go into treatment centers n stuff. I cant afford that but I can cancel some things and treat myself to some nice food if Im going through recovery from this awful addiction. It helps. Gotta just get back on the wagon. Its only defeat if you give up. dont be a slave to algorithms.
Once again im here. I just had one of my biggest relapses ever. Went for over an Hour trying to find a website and then the „fitting“ Video. And i just cycled back this loop hole to These femdom videos, nearly sisy Videos. And my mind is going Crazy Right now, telling me to forget everything and consume more and so on. It just feels like nothing changed in me, and that im only to surpess these urges. My Most important exams ever are in a week, which probaply is the main cause for These urges.
“I’ve failed over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.” Michael Jordan Regarding “suppressing the urges,” that is a losing battle. The urge wants to create, and neither you, me or anyone else can stop it from expressing itself, so why not harness all that power and get creative?!
Don't dwell too much on your relapses. Always try to maintain a positive mindset. I know it's not easy, but complaining and feeling sorry for yourself only weaken you further and increase the likelihood of another relapse. Each time you do relapse, take a moment to calm yourself down and reflect on why you turned to PMO. What exactly triggered it? What could you have done differently to prevent it? Consider what new strategies you can adopt to overcome your addiction: meditation, joining support groups like SA, indulging in hobbies, reaching out to friends, prayer, surrendering erotic thoughts to a higher power, and so on. People struggling with sex addiction will always have to battle urges, perhaps for their entire lives. However, with time, these urges tend to diminish as the addiction is overcome. You'll discover which tools work best for you and find greater satisfaction in smaller, everyday joys. I know this because people with the same addiction and hundreds days of sobriety have shared this insight.
