A few days back I relapsed again from a streak of 43 days of abstinence. I had a thought why not try meditation? I had very little experience with meditation when one of my school teachers thought mindfulness meditation 25 years back. I tried to sit in a calm room with doors closed. I sat in a cot without back support because I feel it difficult to sit on the floor, kept my both hands together on my pelvis in a mudhra and closed my eyes. I was listening to all the sounds around me. Then I had the idea why not think about porn? Then I thought about various porn videos and had the urge to open my eyes and mastrubate, but I could feel that I can channelise the sexual energy through all the weaker parts of my body, especially I had a intense feeling in the middle of my forehead. Then now I practice this even when awake, now whenever I have sexual feelings I feel like I could chanelise the energy through different parts of my body especially through my third eye(centre of forehead). Now I practice meditation daily and pray everyday. I hope can be celebate with this practice.
I have been making an effort to get into it through apps like Headspace I have alot of trouble focusing and I find the guided nature of it helpful (I also get a pretty nice discount through work so that helps) im not great at it but im trying