Short update: I now have about 1-2h I need to survive, then I'm safe for the day. Saturday will be another big challenge. Edit: I've made it through today. Now let's see about saturday.
Day 22 in the books. I had some strong urges today. I acknowledged them and let them pass. Stay strong Fellowship! Into the Misty Mountains!
Day 22 The exhaustion from years of PMO has set in, there’s shame and guilt, but mostly a sense of sadness that it has affected my life so much. I’ve had great talks with my fiancée recently; I know I’m loved, I just have to love myself.
Day 59. This morning I caught myself that I am not sure why am I doing this anymore. Yeah... I want a jean jacket. Is that it? One person wrote that he feels sorry for messing his life with pmo for so long. At the moment I am not sure if pmo messed my life. My life is pretty much the same before and after nofap. Maybe even harder now because I don't have constant sedative (I mean p, m, o) anymore. But again. It doesn't matter much. I am doing what I have to do. Nothing more, nothing less. Spoiler: Journey stuffs 59 days hardmode. Denim jacket reward for 70 days. ??????? No caffeine at all. Documentary "So, where next?" 4/many
try to switch the "i have to" to "i want to", bro. usually a "have" or a "must" implies opression to the emotional side. A "want" means alignment between mind and emotions So you "want" to love yourself . Yes you do, that is a good advice
Checking-in Fellowship! How you Warriors been doing? Here, i´m going good on the porn battle front. No urges, just some temptations from time to time that i quickly dismiss. My main goal now is to devote myself to become a Man, both physically and mentally. My body and mind have taken a huge beating from the decades of addiction but i want to gain my place in society has a high value Man. I want to be a role model for society, specially for guys. I wish you all a great weekend, my friends. Stay focus, stay on the path! big hug