Day 9, 10, 11, 12, & 13. Checking in. Day 13 - Padawan Let's just say busy Ehh delayed but I will put these GIFs here. It relates to my journey. One day I will be the Second Force Ghost Master And waiting approval of my journal entry again. Was it a specific word I was talking about or now I am being censored regardless? Strange. Jedi out
Day 14 & 15. Checking in. Day 15 - Padawan JEDI KNIGHT and .Angel. I am finish with Project #3! Angel. is gone again? Any way, now I have to get the certain parts for Project # 2 & # 3 to work fully. I believe this will be a good one. I am going to mess around with #3 for a bit or so then. I will use it and it will benefit with me from time to time while doing my NoFap journey even though I can't fully use it yet to 100%. This will take time once it fully accessible in a sense once I get my necessary parts to work 100%. That's it. I am blocked from one of my journal posts but manage to check in with one post. Great. Certain words? Topics? I am not surprised fellow Jedis. Fight the dark side Jedi out
Day 7, Padawan time! This time around I am doing something different, or that I have a different and better perspective now. First thing is that I've started to do Dr. Richards overcoming social anxiety program again. I haven't done it in years and I knew it was really helpful when I did and it's helping me a lot now. It's not just for social anxiety but for all anxiety really as well as depression. Generally I feel more relaxed, less anxious and less upset about things for continuing to do the program every day for the past week. The second thing is my piano practice, and my goal to be a piano teacher. I have started to see a teacher myself since last week, and she is helping me to prepare for the exams. Right away she was able to point out a lot of mistakes I was making in the pieces I've been preparing and they're easy mistakes to fix. I don't think I could have learned piano without learning from a teacher. The third thing is that I talked to my therapist last night about quite a lot. How I was neglected as a child, learning to be a peace inside myself, and getting to experience my true self with playing and learning piano. He said it's important that I recognize how I have a lack of anxiety with playing music, and how it's a spiritual experience for me. And he said if any of his clients were telling him what I told him about getting to experience my true self with how I feel about piano and music that he would be jumping over the moon for them and he congratulated me saying that I've finally got it. That I've solved my existentialist crisis and that I solved my anxiety from finding an experience for my true self. That doesn't mean I won't ever relapse again. But I feel that it's been easier doing all that I've said above, easier to do nofap. I did have an urge yesterday but I felt it was easier to swat it away from just thinking about a piece of piano music I really like and then getting out of bed and continuing my practice.
Day 16, 17, 18, 19 & 0 , & 1. Checking in. Day 1 - Youngling Ending at 19 days. Reset to P. Restarting and going again on Hard Mode. I only looked at P and that was it. I got frustrated doing something before bed time. Insomnia I guess but I was staying up for another reason. Then was working on something to fix and led to frustrations. It led to me "tasting" it but I didn't indulge fully. I almost did. I really wanted to TBH. I almost fully gave into the dark side. But I didn't fully go all the way. I am still going! Doesn't matter, I am still going regardless but I am proud I didn't embrace the dark side fully No promises the next time or so. I am not perfect. Forgot so May the 4th be with you Let's go fellow Jedis Jedi out
