Om I find that I've become increasingly on board with sexual restraint. Not just doing no PMO, but also limiting any form of sexual contact to Friday through Sunday. I am scheduling my week to have training be Monday through Thursday so I'm tired and don't want it anyways. Then Friday through Sunday I can have fun with Bulma. So in a way my week's scheduled around sex lol. Alright well, I handled stuff with getting a new couples counseling scheduled this morning. Then I'll have a session at noon in about 25 minutes. Before then I'm going to go over whatever Katie told me to take care of to get me on boarded with my new company. OM!
I'll subscribe meng- most of my youtube viewing is either Martin Licis and Ivan Djuric working out or Action Bronson eating food lol- your stuff right up my alley
Oh awesome thanks so much Meng! I’m going to put together more martial arts material just grinding kicks and punches. Maybe even no contact spars with Bulma. I want to post my sparring sessions from my dojo. Guess I’ll need a tripod or someone to tape it. Yeah good things to come hehe can’t wait to check those dudes out today
Om wow deep breath. Works been crazy. I’m so grateful to have the job and get paid though. Love my job. Bit stressful onboarding adolescents. But I’ll make it work. I believe in myself. my cats so cute and cuddly since being on drowsy antihistamines. I wonder if there’s something like this we can put him on regularly after his allergies clear up. Baki is a good show the original is free to watch on YouTube. ommmmmm I’m going to my first pizza party at the dojo tonight at seven. Wish me luck. Till then I’m gonna play sack boy with Bulma and maybe a little street fighter learning yay may we have a good day
True to my name of calisthenics minimalist I am aiming to do only one day a week of full body strength training which a majority of the exercises are calisthenics. I'll also do one other day with my partner doing yeah fella good see my most recent short for the minimalist workout I’m doing now since it won’t let me upload my pic
ommmm Well ladies and gentlemen it was time I just deleted smite and smite 2 I accept this. These five pounds I put on the last two months were hard earned. Sleep training and nutrition. Eating and being tired of eating. Taking my creatine and vitamins daily. Protein shakes almost daily. yes it was worth it. And if I’d spent it playing smite all day. And I was maybe silver rank: I think I’d be dissatisfied and bored and burned out feeling. Just miserable. So I’m glad I made that choice. I pkayed a few rounds of smite just now and it felt like it always did. Good wins but not worth the sting of lonesome defeat. It’d only be worth it if I had friends to play with everytime that I know IRL SO pass on that forever Sokay Ow my body hurt from the strain of dips today I should drink some more willow bark and maybe reiki and foam roll it stretch it Rest and ice I can’t just give up on myself, or the life I want to live. Won’t let games and things that don’t serve me stay in my life . Time to release you smite goodbye, I’m not mad at you. I’m just glad I’m finally free . 250+ hours later phew just like genshin heh coulda watched cowboy bebop instead that would’ve been better This was maybe the first time in a long time that I sort of didn’t want sex when my partner wanted it I just wanted to focus on my training and recovery all week. Even if it meant having less sex this week . I don’t think she’d mind either but I’m tentative to decline when it’s there . Just because I don’t want her to feel unwanted. I’m just trying to save all the energy and semen I can to go hit the mma gym tomorrow Ommmmm good nite
Om I did it. I switched the spots on n my hierarchy ranking and put my relationship at the top. Previously Buddha was number one with my relationship at number two. So. that’s scary. I consulted with Buddha and it feels like it’s best having her at the top. I felt like my Om ommmm processing. My perspectives shifted. I understand her perspective. And how when I’m just clear about the positive thoughts and reasons behind my behavior. She knows….. Today we finally broke through something that’s been an issue the whole relationship. Things tended to go well when I just made jokes and did cute things with her. So I kept doing those. But I took up too much space even if it was a positive vibe. I needed to listen more so. I asked if we could take turns active listening in a timer. I listened first and she could listen after if she wanted. RESULTS: It went swimmingly. She really appreciated me listening with undivided attention for seven minutes about her job. I prayed for her she wanted to listen to me about my mma training. And I really appreciated that too. Then it was a strong bonding experience that led to sex. I’m happy!
Ommmmmmmmmm The AC may have just broken again. After three days of blissful functioning it’s not cooling off. im getting to work. Today. And I’m. Deep breaths. Moving forward as many therapy sessions as possible. From both my jobs. I am attempting to keep both jobs and not get burned out it feels a lot like trying to do BJJ and MUAY THAI at the same time. ZzZzzzz it’s challenging and I need to pace myself. But I know I can do it like millions of others have. In a few months of dedication everything will be easy and smooth. I’ll have a huge payoff that’s double the payout that just one or the other would offer. Even 3x as the two jobs and two martial arts combined will be worth much more than the sum of their parts Gabarre means do your best. Persevere.
OM!!!!! My company is ready to issue me my first direct deposit. Ugh what a relief. I haven't gotten pad in like three months. Phew. I know they'll get me my payment very soon. The new jobs gotten a lot of matches and I'm on the ball as of today. Sent out the welcome text in under 24 hours from when the match occurred. Just trying to get scheduled for a session or a free consultation. Maybe I can make it even smoother somehow? I dunno. 'Could you please schedule a first session with me through our website or via text. You can also let me know if you'd like a free 15 minute consultation. Hope to work with you soon!' That sounds good. Ommmmm time to go eat. Yum. ... ..eat save money good good. Soon....someday soon. I'll be 185 lbs 7-12% bodyfat. With a six figure income. And saving 50% or more of it!!!!!! Investing it into safe and modestly safe mutual funds for my retirement. XD XD XD I got thiiiiiiiisssss. HEY MY YOUTUBE HIT 8K VIEWS LETS GOOOOOO!
Om my friend got first place at a bjj comp. Props to her See her full fight on my tube if you wish Ommmmmmm it was my first time going to a bjj tournament and I just watched. I had a good time. I got to connect with my new friends. Happy I saw them. We actually went and made a omm I got invited to the running group for cross training. Thats nice. Ommmm yeah this experience has made me want to train Gi Bjj. That’s what everyone kind of does? And Om it’s the only way to earn a belt. I want to do it to make friends too because my friends in bjj are generally at those classes and the tournaments are with a gi.
Ommmmmmmmm life’s so boring with a bruised rib keeping me from powerlifting and mma right now. Just resting up. Hope it heals asap!! I’ll try to do just bodyweight squats and calf raises maybe lunges too tomorrow. Oh well. That’s what I can do so I’ll do it .
Ommmm dang that hurt. I got my first actually negative comment on YouTube. I mean that means I’m awesome and popular or at least growing in popularity. stings tho. Someone made fun of me for having a large forehead implying it’s unattractive and needs fixing with some sort of hairline alteration stuff. I dunno if that’d be a good idea tbh. I just try to think about Ryan Reynolds and his big forehead that’s generally considered attractive or Neil Patrick Harris who is similar or that other guy. Alexander Skarshgard, Christina Ricci etc https://www.buzzfeed.com/tabathaleggett/celebrities-wholl-make-you-proud-of-your-fivehead it’s tough to build self esteem back up after people try to tear it down. Ouch …. maybe I’ll make a body positivity for large foreheads idk it doesn’t matter to me that much. my forehead is smaller than the after picture on the hair transplant website shrugs idk every tuber I’ve watched said they got trolls. And they were bothered at first but soon after learned to just not be bothered by it. I haven’t been made fun of my forehead since high school. Unlike high school though. There’s like a 10:1 ratios of positive to negative feedback. Even a 11,000 : 1 ratio as id count all the views to be positives. Thats a lot better than high school lol I think I got troll comments from like half the girls I expressed interest in. Lame right. yep gonna just keep rocking my look. No one is without negative commenters if they have even a sliver of fame. Brad Pitt and Tom cruise get bashed for their looks too by some keyboard warriors they for sure have more trolls than I have viewers lol alright Hoo settle down you’re handsome it’s fine. Buddha will sick Karma on them or something. You’ll get more resilient to it and not be bugged by harsh remarks. At least not much and always remember to focus on the positive after dealing with the negative. 11k:1 means people do like you and find you attractive on the whole. let’s get you a nice short haircut like you wanted Om
In fact if that happens I again (I replied “tell it to Ryan Reynolds”). Because he’s a handsome guy with a big forehead who millions of women would die to spend a day with. next time I’ll just report block them or even just block without reporting
Ommmmmmm ooooweweeereeeoooooooooooo Ribs elbow and something else hurt They’re healing and healing is A process I’ll keep trusting this process Tummy little tender from hot sauce ? Shoulder was hurting a bit too leason learned Don’t spar k Shaub he’s too beast Don’t do bar dips Rings dips ok Go swimming Swimming is healing for the joints As long as it’s moderate I’m working on my head movement see pic It’s a 2.5 lb head movement bag. Thing hurts when it hits you. But not as bad as a punch does. It’s good for my head movement feels superb. I practiced my boxing defense with Bulma. I blocked everything. I’m going to try to do it again with some dodging. Then the next level is to only dodge and hit on the slip. Then I can land punches on taller people which , if you haven’t tried it before. Is difficult. Like really hard
OM!!!!!!! OM HOME haha ommmm.....right plug in laptop maybe read game or watch tv ommmm eat something I think I havee somee good eats Annddd we're listening to our body now. That's the goal. Listen to body, go with feelings. Arlight. Sleepies Actually not sleepy today. And I got up at 8. That's great. I read my book at 10pm. Then slept before 11. Very good yes Putting a ban on SMITE and Baldur's Gate. Too addictive for me. And I'm good with that. Life's looking much better without those games in it. Cool just one session today at 5pm. No problem. Ribs are getting better everyday. Shoulder is too. I know I'm fine and will be alright. When I return to the Dojo I'll be a lot safer by: not rolling with white belts that are stronger than me (most dangerous opponent), not doing muay thai sparring until I'm more confident in my boxing defense and trying out just one class per day instead of two (really tiring). Yep. That's chill with ZenYogi. I was rapping with my partner yesterday and had a good time. She's really nice and supportive of my raps. <3 We have fun
Om I’m doing better everyday in every way Well resting is something I don’t know how to balance all the time. But I felt the need to train after all the rest lately. So I did the best I could to work around my bruise and help it heal 2 Motrin. air squats, bodyweight rows knee push ups and calf raises and just holding the bottom of a crunch. That’s all I could take today without harm. im satisfied with that result. I’ll aim to be back for BJJ on Tuesday. I settled on bjj only as I’m getting g started. Then can add in Muay Thai again later. phew can’t wait till I’m able to do full push ups and sit ups again. I just finished a book on Muay Thai. I have one on bodyweight training for muscle. When that’s done I’ll read jiu jitsu university. I find I only get through books or anything really if I just focus on one at a time. So just one book to read at one time. It honestly makes me wonder if I should drop my second job so I can focus on just one job. and I’m doing bjj only so I can focus on that art before trying to add the other in. ommmm and same with calisthenics. Just cal till I feel I can handle adding weights . Synchronistically I just got a second boxer in the game I’m playing. it just makes me wonder, How do you know it’s time to do a bit more? To take on the next level of your career, training or relationships? For me it’s time to upgrade and accept the responsibility when everything’s been running smoothly for a few months. Or at least one month. I supposed the job is okay to keep. but the rest scaled back. Back to plain bodyweight strength training. Down to one martial art instead of two. One game one book. Only the job part am I going after holding two down. However between those two jobs I’m only set to be scheduled for 33 hours a week. I’m keeping Mondays closed for now. Hey, this second boxer is exciting to have now. Om. Yeah I think that’s a good sign. That, when I go for the next level I’m happy and excited seeing something new grow. While I maintain the good things I already have. Like shadowboxing and calisthenics I’ll keep up while I’m learning the new thing bjj. I am getting better every day in every way I’m choosing to believe in myself and the good people around me . Then we all get better together
Honestly the time frame varies For BJJ 1-3 months healthy smooth sailing would be enough to try adding Muay Thai. For marriage???? 3+ years together. For surpassing the 33 total hours in a work week cap. Ommmm when 33 is good for like a month or three then I’ll think about bumping up to Mondays too. However if it’s fine money wise and I save a lot per month I’ll just keep it as is and maintain at 33. That would give me more time to grow another area of my life so I could study for my blue belt or start making more Muay happen. Even add in free weights. meh on the weights for now heh. I have so much more energy with only calisthenics. Plus if the author of “homemade muscle” is any indicator I can get plenty more jacked off calisthenics. Then I can have more energy and time for my mma. The template is five days a week train two days rest. However if I’m tired I’ll rest based on tiredness up to three days a week. the five days are going to be 2 BJJ 2 Calisthenics (Power) 1 stamina (cardio). I can improvise as I feel able by doing calisthenics in the morning then bjj at night. Or by doing 10 minutes of light rowing before and after bjj. To warmup and cooldown. 10m is good cardio even though it’s short it could add up to 40 mins a week plus one stamina day where I run 3-6 miles or swim a mile that’s good stamina, power and skill. I like it! I just hope two rest days works. I’ve been doing three rest days. But like, then I’m pushing it too hard on active days. Idk my therapist says to just listen to my body and have two rest days five active as the general template.
Om as I think on it I realize more that smite mirrors my addiction to cannabis. Even when I succeeded at smoking once a week. My mind would go crazy 24/7 with craving cannabis until a whole month passed. Then I’d finally stop craving. I feel the same way when I play smite. Even a moment of playtime and I feel obsessed. I can’t stop thinking about it I want to play all the time. Even when I moderate it I’m still in my head playing 24/7. Even as I’m falling asleep or doing dishes. I can’t be present with the people I love. Can’t focus on my job. It’s just the addict brain craving craving. And the more I get the more I want the more tired I am. I sleep all day at the worst and game till 4am nightly. I know I could moderate it now. I could play an hour a day or less. I just don’t want to do it anymore. It’s not conducive to what matters to me in life. Training, career, Bulma and Meowy. S2 I wanna smell the fresh air. Ahh that’s nice. it’s a cool sixty outside today. Not bad. Body’s feeling good today. I think tomorrow I can be doing a full push up again. Hopefully without the need for any pills after. For sure I’ll ice after though. I’ve been doing cool showers again which is helping me recover. They aren’t the most pleasant thing and instead of forcing it. Which leads to burnout. I just do it as often as I can handle without going to an extreme. Just working with my body’s signals to me. Pushing to the edge of the comfort zone. Then it can grow naturally little by little. I’m feeling very good about calisthenics. It’s a middle path in life. Between just doing cardio and full on bodybuilding. The calisthenics are good for building a lot of muscle and strength. With less bulk than the bodybuilding results of weight training
Good for you for recognizing the line in the sand for yourself with respect to video games. This reminds me of an old David Choe interview- he's like a modern Andy Warhol, super dope artist, but has a super addictive personality too... This is a 5m clip of him talking about his good old gaming days, and about inflicting "ICE STORMS" on his Warcraft 2 enemies basically all dayy, even when not playing..... Checker out if you get a chance, it's kinda funny, and also makes ppls like me feel less alone in the struggle (after binging the Fallout series on Amazon for 2-days straight lol) Artist David Choe Was Hooked on "Warcraft 2" (youtube.com)
