I feel alone in this struggle. In the midst of the people that sorrounds me, I'm feeling mesirably alone fighting this. Its to embarassing to share and I wouldn't want people to look at me in disgust. I feel trap, in this cage I created myself. There's no way to run away from this but, even knowing this, I kept running, to the extend that I find myself tired and exhausted. As if sometimes, I barely feel alive, for PMO has taken my joy in life. I'm tired, sad and desperately trying to escape this viscious cycle from repeating itself again. How can I help myself? well, for starters, I have to pick up where I left behind... this community perhaps. I'm responsible for my action. so, this week,my promise to everyone reading this, I promise to keep my gaze away from any form of porn... P, sexy music videos, sexy pic, arousing pic in any form, basically anything related to P. I will also promise to keep away from a few websites....(Obvious P site, 9gag-9gag.tv, reddit,imgurl) I promise, to work my ass of, in keeping my promise a reality. I will update daily... that's a promise
feeling depressed is no reason to hate ourselves. and for your promise, good luck. will see ya at the end of the week. stay strong, stay positive, stay healthy, stay away from PMO..
Pls don't feel depressed and don't hate yourself. We all have been in your situation. I started this fight with PMO 2 years back and it is materializing only now. When I first started this i was in hell.self hate depression was common. I had to give up finally within just a week.next courage I could find after a year!it lasted for 20 days and again relapse.one month of deep activity. Then again started this fight which lasted for 55 days.relapse again.then 1 month clean.now I am on day 93.goal is 120 days.
Welcome to the club. You can have a life long membership unless you step out of the door with a sign above it "life without depression and sadness", but I wouldn't know how it feels since i haven't done it.
@neonip, I know that I'm late as I told you that I'll see you after a week. but now, it's about two weeks. so, how is your journey going?
Life just sucks when all you know is the bottom, You gotta work for your happiness, like you said you created your own cage of misery...so now it's up to you to break free from the cage. Also, be nice and do kind things for others, and you will be rewarded in time with joy and peace of mind
