Day 149/oo The new normal though I miss the pleasure of O. Not M.ing allows me a lot of extra time that is the good side. (+ not degrading women + not fealing dirty + no post O down + no escalating + no lie + not supporting the P industry...) I am still estranged at how my brain will fantasy of S. by using the body of complete female strangers that I cross by scenarizing some S. activity on the spot. Was this way of using S. Contracted by viewing P? Or is it a Normal and untold effect of default mode network when not having O. ed for some time? Sad that there are so few left of us Happy that there is still so many of us Stay strong we do this together