Dear brothers, After many years of abuse and self desctruction, I have decided to give up PMO for good. I'm only into day 5 so far, but I already feel a little bit better, the shame is slowly disappearing day by day. It is going to be one hell of a journey and I feel this might be the biggest test I will ever face in my life. Those of you who are starting the process now or have just started: please stay strong. Those of you who have achieved what you have desired: I'm extremely proud of you. I know we have never met and probably never will, but still, I'm very proud. I'll come back with a lot more details once I have passed day 30. I know I will, there is simply no other way. I stopped being a passenger, I have taken control and I'm charge now, not my stupid desensitized brain and broken dopamine receptors. Stay strong! Love, Dave
I have to write this down. I had a very hard urge today under the shower. I was washing my tool and then suddenly had this unbelievably terrifying urge, my brain went mental and immediately started thinking about edging a little bit. I touched it for a few seconds and it felt like heaven. Then I stopped. Got out of the shower, I was shaking like a leaf and I'm man enough to admit that I almost cried, but I beat it. I think I'll be fine. I cannot describe how hard was it to resist. My brain was telling me there is nothing wrong what you are doing. I fed the right wolf this time. God give me strength to make the right call next time. Stay strong, brothers. (Day 7)
Great to read about your success. Thanks for sharing. It will give inspiration to us and hopefully to you too Let's rock!
Thanks guys. I was thinking about the reason behind my near-relapse experience, and I think I understand it: after 6 days I became over confident and cocky so I thought I could get away with anything. Well, as it turned out, it doesn't really work that way. Lesson learned: I need to be a LOT more patient, humble, and careful about it.
Good luck my friend. I am also starting out on my recovery. Only day 2 for me but the shame of PMO really resonates with me. I literally feel so much shame I struggle to look people in the eye and cant hold my head up as I am totally ashamed of what I have become.
Many thanks and good luck to you too brother. Although I'm only on my 8th day so far, the effects are simply unbelievable (in a positive way). But it's damn hard. I'll provide more details once I have reached the 30th day. Stay strong and please use Nofap's emergency button if needed, it really helped me a lot. That, and a cold shower...
I have reached 14 days today, feeling pretty good but i feel there is still a very long way to go. I will share my personal diary on the 30th day. I have urges every now and then but I don't miss P at all. I definitely miss MO a LOT, but not P. Since I've stopped, I've never thought about watching P. On the downside, I do feel a little bit alone these days, but I'm sure it will get better and easier. I wish everybody else good luck for their recovery.
I've just asked a girl out today and she said yes! I'm over the moon. This would have been completely impossible 21 days ago as I had literally no motivation whatsoever, but it's different now as my brain has to look for other sources of pleasure other than PMO. Keep going guys, it is totally worth it!
