Finally found your journal Day 3, very nice... About Mondays: they are usually my top trap! I dont know what to do except of staying busy busy busy! But the hours around 2 and 4 pm are always very hard! Be aware of your weakness and PREPARE!
Day 4 today ( actually, if day zero was day 1 today would be day 5) the good thing is that im actually loosing count! I don't even count anymore because fapping is no longer part of my routine I know I must be aware of the danger of thinking its too easy but after I deleted my 15 year Skype account wich was 99% of my addiction, there is no more place to run. I've been really busy and really productive. Running 5K everyday, going to the gym with my personal trainer and eating healthy. I believe that the source if my addiction was also the rituals that I would do when I would wake up, before shower and before sleep, but now without my primal source and being so busy, it is just not an option so I end up speeding up those processes that took sooooo long when I was in addiction. No urges so far and no strange feelings like I had before like pain in my stomach or testicles. Im very positive and will continue with my task lists because its been helping not only to stay away from addiction but also making a whole new road in my life.
I really like that, you're very active! I do some sports, like running, cycling once a week and gym two times. But I can tell you that it really needs all my energy to keep on every week, every months and any progess just comes so slowly! Thats actually one reason why I am here: To find out, experience, how much energy this PMO thing actually suck off my daily Life! How much easier will Life be without it?! That is one very big motivation for me to keep on!
Day 8 As I was hangovered it was very dangerous because that was one of the causes of my last relapse but I invited people home so I was not alone and it worked. Had some urges but now they are gone I really need to stay away from alcohol for 90 days too i guess
day 10! Im definitely flatlining not even if I force myself to think about sexual things I get aroused. I'm very focused on my first goal (30 of 90) and I will give myself a reward after that ( I will buy something I want from a long time, something like that, a frown thought me that method and I think it might be a good idea to give this kind of incentive to the brain) I had some hardons during the night but I don't remember the dream at all. Talking about the issue with AP and talking in general is really helpful. It works as a more up to date journal and I keep seeking material on brainonporn or other noFap related websites thar reinforces the whole deal. Keeping it real! this is real P IS NOT REAL