Day 210 in a row, no PMO, by the grace of God I first came into porn addiction recovery in 2008..this addiction never gets any easier. I want to stay free from this nasty addiction just for today.
Nice JJ_kino! Thanks for the link.p Hey @artifact - I’d like to join the group again on the list. I liked feeling not alone in this thing.
Thank you for the encouragement and support! It really means a lot to me, especially tonight when I'm struggling. Please feel free to reach out if you ever need support
Checking in - felt awesome last night on the way home from work. Felt like I could break away and beat PM. Haven’t felt like that in months. which I smiled at. That’s a trigger for me. Sure enough - first thoughts of breaking the new streak an hour later. The bad thing about all the failures is the addiction sucks. The good thing about the failures is I know how I fail because I’ve done in a million times. this short streak is the longest in a couple of months. I’m telling myself no excuses and I’m done forever - but smiling at myself knowing it’s absurd with my track record lol. I need to do some things for work. Once done - I want to review old notes about PM. For me more than 20-30 min a day on this topic is negative though. I need to live life - not get bogged down with the addiction. We just need to start new streaks every time we fail and learn from the last one. I’m committed to making this one last forever!
Day 211 for me I was back at work today after a week-long vacation. Need to get up at 3 AM and 4 AM today and tomorrow for work. Kind of dreading work to be honest. I've been dealing with feelings of depression too and some family of origin issues. Facing life sober is not always easy
Just a little update, been a long time for me. So this might sound a bit "Out there" but I want to share my findings. So recently I've been looking at my Triggers what causes them and how to avoid them etc. Stress is a huge trigger for me, I over think things sometimes and then anxiety comes in to play then I just give in my streaks go out the window. Food is another huge trigger for me as well, high carb food, starch or sweet both trigger me and then there's alcohol which opens up another rabbit hole. So what's helping me so far is Ashwagandha and Aspirin with Vitamin K2. Ashwagandha helps with stressful situations, just helps me relax and keep calm, and Aspirin helps by keeping my blood sugar low after meals. I'll keep you all posted if I find anymore helpful tips. Cheers
Mid week check in. Good to see 60 days back on the counter . Good to get past what has become a resistance area for me. Onwards from here.
I relapsed again. It's gotten completely out off control. I even looked at porn on the phone when I took my kids to the movies. PMO every day. The situation is so bad that it's almost funny, but this stupidity has to come to an end. I'm going to check in here every day for 10 days and take it from there.
