I just got a new job interning for a company as a help desk specialist. I started labor day week and I was 2 weeks sober without having any major relapses in years. For some reason I decided to relapse all weekend after my first four days. My brain function is now terrible, my short term memory is so bad its embarrassing and my attention to detail is also horrid. I'm also very slow doing my work. Has any one else experienced this?
Yes man I am in the exact same boat as you. I'm interning at this Engineering/Manufacturing company. Before I started the job I had a month streak going no problem. After the first week I relapsed all weekend. When I came back to work the next week I couldn't remember anything, I couldn't look people in the eye and talk to them, I was slow at my job, and i had trouble doing simple calculations. I would then relapse every weekend because I was so stressed and anxious. In my opinion I think the reason for relapsing is because deep down you are afraid and anxious about getting out of your comfort zone. Starting a new internship can be discomforting and PMO helps with that discomfort temporarily. So I'm right there with you pal, keep clean that's the only to get through this.
Yes, you’re in withdrawal. Brain fog or lack of cognitive function is what you have and many of us here. Stay away completely for you to recover.
Thanks for posting guys, this makes me feel better and feel like I'm not the only one going through this.
Hey man i start a new job at the start of july and i really want to keep this run going for many of the reasons mentioned above. (I'll be close to a month by then) When i don't fap i tend to be a lot better at taking in new information as well as making eye contact etc. All the more incentive to keep this streak going as so many other people report the same problems when doing pmo heavily!
