Checking in. Today was pretty rough but I am pushing through the hard times. This group has kept me strong with the encouragement and I really do not want to restart my counter. One week down!
Hi Hi yes I am still here, struggling to get my head around this and a little bit of alcohol induced anxiety doesn't help either. I'll keep active. Cheers
Day 160. Sorry, but today I will use some lines to do "therapy" Analyzing myself, I see that today the danger is not the desire of PM, but the desire for pleasure or immediate satisfaction ... PM is the quick way out that I always used. But that exit is closed. So let's see ... why do I need pleasure / satisfaction today and now? Processing ... Because I'm a little tired Because I perceive that I don't have clear and motivating objectives Because I have not received "applause" towards me in recent days (what a shame to depend on the approval of others!) So: I will ask the Lord for new power, take a shower to renew strength, set motivational goals, organize my time and seek the company of some good friends.Have a great weekend and thanks for reading!
I am giving you my applause, but you know, it kind of muffled because my paws are padded. LOL Being in this group is really helping me stay on track. It is kind of like being in a car race, doing laps, trying not to fall behind. I really appreciate this group.
Oh look, I would have stayed at 4th place. But I had a rough patch the last couple weeks. I'll update my signature...
This is very sober and very measured. Why do I want pleasure today? A stressful week at work (surprise surprise, another one), I’m tired. Solution? Slow down, enjoy the rich texture of the present moment... I just kissed my toddler good night and he told me he loved me. I am now holding a new born in a carrier and walking down the street. The air is cold and the Autumn is here. Somewhere deep inside I am connected to the Eternal, to the Root of all. The “I” can dissolve there. It doesn’t need to grab at the low hanging fruit of self induced pleasure. Have a good weekend, folks!
Checking in on Day 6. October has been a pretty good month. My weekdays have been effortless though my weekends have not. I have a job today and then plan to go to the gym. Tomorrow is wide open and potentially problematic but I've scheduled a dinner with friends (and am treating it as a celebration for a PMO-free week).
This is beautiful. But all I can think about is "don't trip with that baby while you're texting and walking!"