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Help too late. I hate myself. I can't do this much longer...

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  1. Jul 12, 2017 #1
    We CAN Do This!

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    okay just been edging for last half an hour to porn, I'm so disappointed. I've only PM'd, not O'd yet. Do I O and just get it out the way or not O?

    The urges will be so strong if I don't O.

    Advice please!!
     
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  2. Jul 12, 2017 #2
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    Too late. I'm a mess, I'm a bad person, I'm a failure and I don't deserve anyone's time here.

    i promised myself I would make 30 days this time but it was another fucking lie to myself and i hate it. I HATE IT SO MUCH

    Now I'm sat with it all in my boxers depressed for another week having had such a creative day with an 11k walk and everything. A ruined evening. I want to cry. I hate myself :(:mad::eek:
     
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  3. Jul 12, 2017 #3
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    I encourage you to ditch the negative self-talk. It's not helping you one bit. Some of us have to start at the lowest of the lows. My first goal was to not binge when I fall. That's it. I moved from binging a lot, to binging a little, to no longer binging when I fall. Now I'm working on completing a week, then another, then another, and so on and so forth. I gave up on this idea of a perfect reboot. Perseverance over perfection. If you fall then dust yourself off and get right the fuck back up. Imagine what you would say to your best friend if they were struggling and then say that same shit to yourself.
     
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  4. Jul 12, 2017 #4
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    Bro you are addicted. Accept it. Don't be angry.

    Go to SA (Anonymoys sexuaholics) just go to one meeting. what you got to lose?
     
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  5. Jul 12, 2017 #5
    Shockedbuddy

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    Hey, stop hating yourself.
    Make a plan as guys write here what to do if...
    If I feel triggered I do... dunno... jump
    If I want to go to the P site I push panic button and so on.
    Install K9.
    Make a plan how to deal with cases.
    If A I would do B
    If K I would do D
    And so on

    So literally when you have your urje, count to 5, don't do it and stick to the plan.

    Wish you luck.
    Keep moving! ;)
     
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  6. Jul 12, 2017 #6
    jest

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    This happens to pretty much everyone trying to reboot so worry not, you'll become stronger with each failure.
     
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  7. Jul 12, 2017 #7
    Connor21

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    Damn. The number of times I've had that feeling is embarrassing. You'll get through it but if nothing else your post helped me. Just a reminder that I never want that feeling again. Stay strong:emoji_muscle:!
     
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  8. Jul 12, 2017 #8
    Phibz

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    You're not a "failure." You're not dead yet. I keep setting a goal for 90 days. I've been clean for a year before. I know I can do it. I'm just not ready to face the demon. I know I have to. Get rid of our desires and we'll be happy.
     
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  9. Jul 12, 2017 #9
    Infern0

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    Get back on it right now.

    Do something productive right now dont lie there feeling sorry for yourself clean your room, do your laundry, prep some meals, go to the gym do something.

    This was me at the start of the week you need to get up and moving trust me, dont sit there and let bad thoughts enter your head.
     
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  10. Jul 12, 2017 #10
    noonoon

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    I say cry. Cry like crazy. Get it all out. And then, when your done, stand up and try again.
     
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  11. Jul 13, 2017 #11
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    Great advice! This really helped. I'm going to get straight back into reboot and set myself smaller goals along the way :)
     
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  12. Jul 13, 2017 #12
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    Thanks mate, really good advice, appreciate it :D
     
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  13. Jul 13, 2017 #13
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    I very nearly did! But luckily it was getting a little late so I grabbed an early night instead. Feeling better now I've had 8 hours solid sleep :)
     
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