I think after losing so much weight and now suffering from IBS like symptoms, my tissues are getting damaged. Well fuck!
I think IBS is a result of being nervous often. Eat vegetables and lots of fibre, drink more water, exercise. And stop masturbation.
The worst part of all this suffering is no one thinks it's real. Many think it's just overthinking. Especially doctors.
Since the last few days, I have often had suicidal thoughts...sometimes it feels like I'm only one step away from it. I wish someone cared.
Don't get discouraged. I too had such kinda negative thoughts that no one cares for me,now after knowing the truth its totally gone. If we do good deeds to others and care for others ,it'll return automatically mostly. Life is not even to all but we have the power to steer it to the right way,it may take some time to find the right way, life feels beautiful after that.
I feel closer to death than before. Perhaps it's near. I fucked up big time. But I hope my bad karma ends with this life atleast.
Why? Well, i think the death itself doesn't scare me because i don't know what there's in there. Maybe there's nothing or a heaven.
"Is a naive man, who does not think we are engaged in a war. This is a spiritual war and it's only the beginning. Welcome to Kali Yuga."
Yep this corrupted society are mostly happy to recreate the Kali Yuga/Apocalypse (Revelation!) as it is writen inside the books. Let's continue to make ourself better and don't care about others mind, in this age we can't learn nothing because minds are polluted.